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RE: Hey!
March 17, 2015 at 2:31 pm
Hey robvalue,
My health is better though I still get dizziness and shooting pains in my chest though have made lifestyle changes so should be good in no time at all. Interestingly although I have felt frightened by how I've been feeling I haven't found myself either calling out for God nor wishing it was so. My belief has gone. It's as simple as that and now I'm an atheist I can't believe I ever saw through the crock of excrement that it all was.
Thanks for replying,
WL.
I spent the best part of my life believing in an imaginary system which could absolve me from imaginary sin and not only that, by believing in the imaginary deity and taking up the imaginary offer of an imaginary eternal life I was offered the chance to live in an imaginary world up in the sky when I died. And what did I have to do to have all of this? Simple, I gave up using my real brain in my real life in this real world. F*cked up or what?
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RE: Hey!
March 17, 2015 at 2:42 pm
Welcome to the forums, WL.
I can very much relate to the anger you're feeling right now. It's only natural to feel this way once you realize you've been fed lies. With time, it will pass. I understand how it might seem like you've wasted your life, but I'm certain that being religious for all these years doesn't mean you haven't learned or gained anything from the experience. It's best to focus on the present and leave the past behind. After all, there's nothing you can do about it now and you still have a choice about the future. Better late than never.
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RE: Hey!
March 17, 2015 at 2:46 pm
Hello, there.
Pull up a chair and relax.
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RE: Hey!
March 17, 2015 at 2:48 pm
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Wait, why didn't I say welcome yet?
Welcome to the AF, congrats for the enlightenment and get better soon
The fool hath said in his heart, There is a God. They are corrupt, they have done abominable works, there is none that doeth good.
Psalm 14, KJV revised edition
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March 17, 2015 at 3:22 pm
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Thanks for the welcomes and the best wishes
It's great to be here. Yeah, the past is gone and all I have is the present moment and not having that dark heavy weight upon me all the time is a.... hahaha I was going to write Godsend
Edit .... "not having that dark heavy weight upon me all the time is ......"
Do you know? I don't know what it feels like probably because I have never known anything like it before. I feel light and as if I am all present and correct. I guess it must be peace I'm feeling. Just a few months ago I would be sitting here and typing and I would genuinely feel as if there was a presence in the room with me, both loving and guiding as well as judging and hyper-critical.
When the scales finally fell away I realized I was looking in at an old rundown mental asylum, wooden boards hammered into place but with the bars still showing. When I was within it I accepted I was in the main miserable but felt it was far better than being those roaming around outside lost. I subsequently discovered that they were roaming outside not because they were lost but because they were free. Here I am, one of 'those' people. I still find myself assailed by guilt and shame from time to time but I will tentatively say it feels good.
I spent the best part of my life believing in an imaginary system which could absolve me from imaginary sin and not only that, by believing in the imaginary deity and taking up the imaginary offer of an imaginary eternal life I was offered the chance to live in an imaginary world up in the sky when I died. And what did I have to do to have all of this? Simple, I gave up using my real brain in my real life in this real world. F*cked up or what?
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RE: Hey!
March 18, 2015 at 5:15 am
There you go, religious theists!
That is the real heaven waiting for you, on this earth. Finally you can stop the mental anguish of trying to make reality fit into a 2000 year old book of myths.
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March 18, 2015 at 6:18 am
2000.
Two fucking thousand!
What the hell? I mean, if it was a couple of hundred, I could kind of see the appeal... But these books read exactly like you'd expected from a book written that long ago by people with extremely limited understanding.
