Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...

[SteelCurtain]

CIJS,

I'd be happy if you took a permanent fuck off.

Enyo is great.

[robvalue]

I will stop posting about this altogether now. I am a coward and I only ever talked about it because I was concerned about my continued presence on this forum. That's not very hard for me to admit. I'm not the ridiculous person you people are describing, it's so ridiculous in fact that it makes me laugh. Maybe you'll learn it one day. But not like this. This doesn't concern you.

Good luck and everything. And if Mamacita would like me to take a one month vacation from posting on the forums, I will. That offer stands on the table. It's the least I can do.

I'm a nobody here. Just a member. Do as you wish.

You're just a member like Enyo is just a game!

So proud to be your bestie

[Excited Penguin]

I will stop posting about this altogether now. I am a coward and I only ever talked about it because I was concerned about my continued presence on this forum. That's not very hard for me to admit. I'm not the ridiculous person you people are describing, it's so ridiculous in fact that it makes me laugh. Maybe you'll learn it one day. But not like this. This doesn't concern you.

Good luck and everything. And if Mamacita would like me to take a one month vacation from posting on the forums, I will. That offer stands on the table. It's the least I can do.

I'm a nobody here. Just a member. Do as you wish.

You're someone I wronged and I harbor regrets about that.

I wish to remain on the forum. But if you change your mind, you can tell me anytime. I would willingly listen to you and leave for the amount specified, this is not a trick or a lie. I'm not a horrible person. If I'm making you feel uncomfortable, simply tell me, and I'll try to do everything in my power to stop doing it - within reason. That's all.

[J a c k]

CIJS...
Your mountains of cleverness are like padded bras, so fluffy, but disappointing.

[robvalue]

CIJS: Try this out!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hUVn-s3QTFs

[J a c k]

I need to fucken sleep instead of babysitting my thread.

Just one more thing: this isn't me defending anyone. I can't guarantee I know for fact what really happened in those conversations. I just think there should be common sense in certain privacy issues. It's me doubting our system.

[Excited Penguin]

I was as straightforward and clear as possible. Apparently you'd rather indulge in this delusion about me. I'm very sorry you're choosing that.

Believe what you want.

I'm also sorry Rob and now SteelCurtain got the wrong impression about me. At least, in my subjective opinion, that is. I look forward to ever getting the chance of changing their minds. If not, c'est la vie.

For the last time. I'm not a "manipulator". I'm naive and I'm young, and I have no idea what I'm doing most of the time. I can believe some people would think this horrible stuff about me, but I can't for the life of me understand why some others would, which shall remain unnamed, and no, I'm not talking about Mamacita or whoever else posted about this here, in this thread.

If anything, I'm immature and awkward. But I'm not a terrible person. I don't know how I constantly make people believe that about me on this forum.

If I have any ulterior motives to anything I say, it's not conscious. I've talked about this to people in the past, both publicly and privately. Some people ignored that part of what I said, however, and only saw what they wanted to see.

I study the human condition and psyche, albeit amateurishly. I have pet theories about people acting sometimes without their express knowledge of what they might be actually doing. That is, their unconscious is making their decisions for them and then their conscious side rationalizes them after the fact. This is done so smoothly, in my mind, that it normally escapes subjective experience.

I don't know how right that is or not, because I haven't consulted any scientific literature on the matter. But I thought that would give some context to some of the things I've said in the past.

Point is I'm strange and I have a strange sense of honesty. But I'm not bad, and I'm not evil. I don't hate anyone and don't want to harm anyone. I'm sorry if I ever did...

[Jesster]

CIJS...

[J a c k]

CIJS...
TRUST me on this: don't believe him. Remember me defending him before? Yup. I was one of his supporters. Even gave him a cute pet name, which he later used against me. Yes.

To the prophet who told is all what he was really doing and we didn't believe you (you know who you are, babe), and this will be liberating as fuck (yes, as fucking): YOU WERE RIGHT. I was wrong.

Ok. For real now. Off to bed.

[Excited Penguin]

CIJS,

I will probably never stop regretting getting more intimate with some people. I avoid intimacy for a reason. This is the reason. I'm just not good at it. It's not for me. I'm meant to be lonely. Even as I write this, people will be probably reading it with a smirk on their faces, thinking I'm being fake and playing the victim card. That's a strange fact about human psychology. I've witnessed this before...

I'm rambling.

People always want something from me. They always except me to be perfect. I mean seriously, wtf. I'm not who everyone seems to expect me to be. I want to be able to make mistakes just like everyone else and not be stranded for it... But I guess it's too much to ask.