Freaking out. Anxiety and tired eyes playing tricks on me

Aw.

I'm not sure how I feel right now.. I was feeling better but I'm really not sure.

I feel pretty much the same way I've constantly and consistently felt for the past seven months: like a piece of shit who has no idea how to live like a "normal" person, whatever that means, and with few tools to figure it out.

(November 29, 2015 at 2:58 pm)The_Empress Wrote: I feel pretty much the same way I've constantly and consistently felt for the past seven months: like a piece of shit who has no idea how to live like a "normal" person, whatever that means, and with few tools to figure it out.

I feel like that too overall, it's a general mood and image that hasn't gone away yet. I feel very undesirable and unloved and useless however unjustified that may be. I can totally relate to not feeling like I can live like a normal person... I've still never lived independently yet, I've lived with my family, and then my ex-gf's family and now with my ex-gf. I want my own life and I feel like a loser and a freak.

Although on top of that, outside of that, I'm feeling a lot better lately... apart from today I'm pretty low today, mood still dropping.

I've still felt a lot better since early October when I come back here... but I still have a depressive side to me underneath - at least until I get my life fixed.

Strangely happy for a Monday. More at peace now.

There's lots of good reasons to feel good on a Monday but one really bad one!
Because I've worked 22 days straight, there is no Mondayitis!
Sweet baby jebus, hurry up already and get born!

Feeling tired... awake because I've got a visitor soon... then I'm going back to bed.

*X-Files theme plays*

I feel pretty good today. 8/10 possibly 9/10.

Found cash that I thought I'd lost forever, in a puddle several yards from my vehicle this morning. 
I was pretty excited about that. Still can't stop smiling.

Feeling like I've had a pretty good Xmas so far. With one thing missing

Meh. 3/10. New anxiety meds are not agreeing with me or having a significant effect on my anxiety.