(January 15, 2016 at 9:48 am)SteelCurtain Wrote:

(January 15, 2016 at 9:39 am)Losty Wrote: Jumping out of my seat every few minutes. This is going to be a long day

Thunder is good sleepy time noise.

I'm at work. Getting nothing done. I like the slow rumbly thunder that builds up. Not the random BOOM. It scares me every time.

I'm two weeks into my sobriety -- today is day 15. I'm finding it isn't nearly as hard with the right mindset. When I went a month sober back in Oct/Nov, I was sober -- but I was not in recovery, which is a different thing, fixing what makes me turn to intoxication in the first place. I'm digging into the reasons why now, using a combination of support group, close friends who've been there, and songwriting so's I can dig up those hidden feelings and air them out.

I feel great now -- I wake up in the morning without a cloudy head, I feel all my feelings for better or worse, and deal with reality on its own terms -- not something an addict does very easily. I'm finding that sometimes my feelings are pretty fucking sensitive, and the practice of telling myself to shut the fuck up and get on with it is a healthy one, too. I still have my bad days, and still hear my addict's voice whispering sweet temptation in my head, but it's much easier for me now to lock him out in the miserable cold, where the sonofabitch kept me for so fucking long. Turnabout's fair play.

I started work yesterday building a speaker cabinet for a guitar amplifier I'll be buying soon. That's going to be fun, too. After four+ years playing acoustic-only, it's going to feel great feeling my pants-legs flapping in a 40-watt breeze. I'll be doing more work on the cab today, taking pictures as I go, and I'll put up a thread about it once finished.

That makes me so happy to hear, Thump. Proud of you

(January 15, 2016 at 9:16 am)Vic Wrote:

(January 15, 2016 at 9:14 am)Iroscato Wrote: Stuffed. So very stuffed. Just ate the equivalent of 2 1/2 pizzas at work, with wedges.

Send help and/or dessert.

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SteelCurtain Wrote:What is a wedge?

Dunno what American pigdogs call it, but this:

Biopsy done. Waiting on the results. Will know something within a week. Now I'm waiting on a lunch because I'm hungry and they will not let me go down to the cafeteria by myself due to my having the anesthesia. So, I'm now parked in their waiting area until my fiancee gets off work to pick me up. Another three/four hours.

I think the illness may finally be passing!

(January 15, 2016 at 12:23 pm)Judi Lynn Wrote: Biopsy done. Waiting on the results. Will know something within a week. Now I'm waiting on a lunch because I'm hungry and they will not let me go down to the cafeteria by myself due to my having the anesthesia. So, I'm now parked in their waiting area until my fiancee gets off work to pick me up. Another three/four hours.

We're hoping the best for you, ma'am.

My son's mom was recently diagnosed with cervical cancer, after almost five years free of malignancy. Fortunately, because of her decade-long battle with breast cancer, she gets Pap smears quarterly, so the MDs are confident that this one was caught early and will be treatable by radiation alone.

All that to say I don't know how it feels to have the worry for myself personally, but I do know what it is to worry about someone you love. My best wishes to you for a happy outcome, JL.

(January 15, 2016 at 3:47 pm)Thumpalumpacus Wrote:

(January 15, 2016 at 12:23 pm)Judi Lynn Wrote: Biopsy done. Waiting on the results. Will know something within a week. Now I'm waiting on a lunch because I'm hungry and they will not let me go down to the cafeteria by myself due to my having the anesthesia. So, I'm now parked in their waiting area until my fiancee gets off work to pick me up. Another three/four hours.

We're hoping the best for you, ma'am.

My son's mom was recently diagnosed with cervical cancer, after almost five years free of malignancy. Fortunately, because of her decade-long battle with breast cancer, she gets Pap smears quarterly, so the MDs are confident that this one was caught early and will be treatable by radiation alone.

All that to say I don't know how it feels to have the worry for myself personally, but I do know what it is to worry about someone you love. My best wishes to you for a happy outcome, JL.

They are checking for Barrets, apparently it is, if I understand correctly, what leads to esophageal cancer. They are also checking for celiac disease. If I haven't heard from them by next Friday, I'll be giving them a call.

Stay on it, sweetie.

I will. I don't have school on Fridays so you know calling the doc will be on my list of priorities