(April 11, 2016 at 4:29 pm)Evie Wrote: Feeling like it's hard to slow down when you're a hyperactive turtle.

But I know that I'll be supported and understood by those who care about me because I am trying my best.

I can do this for everyone I care about. I know my friends will be patient with me, even when they're feeling in a tough place themselves.

Because my friends are so awesome.

I'm so lucky to be me.

I'm not perfect, far from it. But I'm just so lucky that a large part of myself is positive

One thing a buddy told me when I embraced recovery (from alcoholism, but I think it's generally applicable) is "live in the moment".

You cannot change the past -- what's done is done.

The future is out of reach, and worrying about it often induces catastrophism, the fear of the worst.

But there are things we can control today, and one of those things is how we ourselves respond to events inside the moment, using mindfulness -- being aware of our thoughts as they happen.

It's hard work, no doubt. We can do this.

(April 11, 2016 at 4:44 pm)Crossless1 Wrote: Elated. Just got a call from my oldest daughter. Grandchild #4 on the way December/January!

Congrats, Gramps!

(April 11, 2016 at 9:58 pm)Bella Morte Wrote: Shitty.

What's up?

Anxious.

Not in an "oh my god where is my ativan" kind of way but more in a healthy response to stress kind of way.

I consider that to be a vast improvement.

(April 12, 2016 at 3:19 am)Thumpalumpacus Wrote: [quote='Evie' pid='1245386' dateline='1460406569']
You cannot change the past -- what's done is done.

The future is out of reach, and worrying about it often induces catastrophism, the fear of the worst.

But there are things we can control today, and one of those things is how we ourselves respond to events inside the moment, using mindfulness -- being aware of our thoughts as they happen.

I came to appreciate the above by perhaps different means, but it nonetheless seems like wisdom to me.

Once I started letting go of the past and letting the future sort itself out, I started being happier.

There's something to be said for living in the moment.

(April 12, 2016 at 3:24 am)Cthulhu Dreaming Wrote: Anxious.

Not in an "oh my god where is my ativan" kind of way but more in a healthy response to stress kind of way.

I consider that to be a vast improvement.

I don't know that I understand anxiety like you do; I've only experienced it in quitting drinking, which is one effect of addiction withdrawal and not a chronic thing, which I think is more the case with you? So any words I write here on out are necessarily of limited use --

-- but I found that working with my hands, cleaning house, woodwork, that sort of thing, get me Zen, outside my own head where I'm not thinking about what Person X thinks of my idea Y.

(April 12, 2016 at 3:28 am)Cthulhu Dreaming Wrote:

(April 12, 2016 at 3:19 am)Thumpalumpacus Wrote: You cannot change the past -- what's done is done.

The future is out of reach, and worrying about it often induces catastrophism, the fear of the worst.

But there are things we can control today, and one of those things is how we ourselves respond to events inside the moment, using mindfulness -- being aware of our thoughts as they happen.

I came to appreciate the above by perhaps different means, but it nonetheless seems like wisdom to me.

Once I started letting go of the past and letting the future sort itself out, I started being happier.

There's something to be said for living in the moment.

Radar is a smart sonofabitch. I wouldn't be where I am without him.

(April 12, 2016 at 3:35 am)Thumpalumpacus Wrote:

(April 12, 2016 at 3:24 am)Cthulhu Dreaming Wrote: Anxious.

Not in an "oh my god where is my ativan" kind of way but more in a healthy response to stress kind of way.

I consider that to be a vast improvement.

I don't know that I understand anxiety like you do; I've only experienced it in quitting drinking, which is one effect of addiction withdrawal and not a chronic thing, which I think is more the case with you? So any words I write here on out are necessarily of limited use --

-- but I found that working with my hands, cleaning house, woodwork, that sort of thing, get me Zen, outside my own head where I'm not thinking about what Person X thinks of my idea Y.

You're absolutely right - keeping busy definitely helps. The challenge of course is when the condition is sufficiently bad that the effort required to break out of the trap is more than one can muster. I don't doubt there's an analog to the experience of addiction.

Twice last year I went to the ER because I thought I was having a heart attack or a second pulmonary embolism, and a third time when I knew exactly what it was. I don't know what anyone else's experience is like and I would be loathe to compare in any case. We all have our limits and there's no point in keeping score, you know?

Right Meow?
I've got a boy who's zonked out and put my leg to sleep after scoffing roast pork.
Oh well, looks like I'll be carrying him to the bedroom again. Kids! Who needs them! I got a cat so I won't have these problems!

(April 12, 2016 at 3:35 am)Thumpalumpacus Wrote: [...]-- but I found that working with my hands[...]

Keeping my hands busy always helps me. In so many ways!