I don't know what I want.

CIJS: I really like giving clients facials.

And not in the dirty minded way some of you are thinking.

CIJS I am nearing the end of my rope and I feel like you, as the one person who should be helping me, you sure the fuck aren't.

(September 21, 2016 at 11:14 pm)Cthulhu Dreaming Wrote: CIJS  I am nearing the end of my rope and I feel like you, as the one person who should be helping me, you sure the fuck aren't.

CIJS...there are people who are purposely contrary in order to look like your opinion is wrong, and they're right. :/

(September 21, 2016 at 11:02 pm)Mamacita Wrote: I don't know what I want.

Just order one of everything

(September 21, 2016 at 11:02 pm)Mamacita Wrote: I don't know what I want.

It's okay to say "I don't know". It's okay.

You know, when I said you'd regret it, I meant it.

I can understand you needing a day. I really can. I just can't forgive you on an emotional basis. That's probably because I wouldn't do this. I didn't do this. Whenever I felt like needing time or space or whatever, or whenever you were having a good time and I didn't. I shut up about it. I didn't say anything. I guess it's just too much that I should do something you're not prepared to do for me. So what this is is not payback, but it's doing the same thing you did. For how long? Who knows. But you can't tell me you don't understand it now. Because you do. And if you hold it against me, you're a hypocrite. And you're not that, we both know that much.

It's not your fault. It's just that now I can do this without feeling guilty about it. I need some time. I hope you'll be okay in the meanwhile.

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If this is it for us, I'm really sorry about it. This was never going to work if I felt like you didn't want it. That's the one thing that does it for me. I forgave you when you tried to push me away once, even though I shouldn't have. You don't want this, I won't force myself on you. It's that simple. Now go be happy without me.

There's one thing you should know. If you ever really need me, I'll forget about the whole thing. But, please, never ever resort to that unless you actually mean it. And when I say need me, I mean actually need me, like your life or well being might depend on it or something. Not like your feelings got slightly hurt and you want me back just to do the same thing again. Because on that score, we're done.

You're the epitome of fake.

(September 22, 2016 at 3:38 am)Alasdair Ham Wrote: You're the epitome of fake.

I'm sorry, but are you talking about me by any chance?

I'm sorry if it's a stupid question, but I have to ask.