I didn't come out as atheist yet, since I'm not financially stable. Today my dad asked me if I like going to church, and I lied that I do. Then he told my mom and me that he's proud of me, because he thinks I really like going to church. 
I feel kind of awkward that he's proud of a lie, but he can't handle the truth, my entire family can't handle the truth. 
There are others in worse situations than me, but I can't help but be scared of the future. I really want to come out some day, but at the same time I'm afraid of their reactions. I told myself that it will not matter after I'll become financially stable, but everytime someone close to me tells me that christianity is good I feel awkward.

I don't see anything good in "sucking God's dick" for eternity under the fear of hell. Satan had enough of it and rebelled.

(February 18, 2018 at 7:47 am)purplepurpose Wrote: I don't see anything good in "sucking God's dick" for eternity under the fear of hell. Satan had enough of "sucking" it seems.

My family doesn't believe in Hell, they think praying helps you in this life, because it gives positive energy. Not as bad as Hell, but still stupid.

(February 18, 2018 at 7:49 am)Die Atheistin Wrote:

(February 18, 2018 at 7:47 am)purplepurpose Wrote: I don't see anything good in "sucking God's dick" for eternity under the fear of hell. Satan had enough of "sucking" it seems.

My family doesn't believe in Hell, they think praying helps you in this life, because it gives positive energy. Not as bad as Hell, but still stupid.

What if there won't be positive energy and help at some point?

(February 18, 2018 at 7:53 am)purplepurpose Wrote:

(February 18, 2018 at 7:49 am)Die Atheistin Wrote: My family doesn't believe in Hell, they think praying helps you in this life, because it gives positive energy. Not as bad as Hell, but still stupid.

What if there won't be positive energy and help at some point?

They believe that if you imagine that a God exists you will be happy, so the positive energy will never disappeare.

(February 18, 2018 at 7:55 am)Die Atheistin Wrote:

(February 18, 2018 at 7:53 am)purplepurpose Wrote: What if there won't be positive energy and help at some point?

They believe that if you imagine that a God exists you will be happy, so the positive energy will never disappeare.

They accept/know Job verses? God isn't positive. His a Sadist. He let's babies die from painful diseases and yet some people are thinking that he will give them positive energy.

(February 18, 2018 at 7:57 am)purplepurpose Wrote:

(February 18, 2018 at 7:55 am)Die Atheistin Wrote: They believe that if you imagine that a God exists you will be happy, so the positive energy will never disappeare.

They accept/know Job verses? God isn't positive. His a Sadist. He let's babies die from painful diseases and yet some people are thinking that he will give them positive energy.

When I told my mom about some cruel Bible verses she responded that the book was written a long time ago.

(February 18, 2018 at 8:02 am)Die Atheistin Wrote:

(February 18, 2018 at 7:57 am)purplepurpose Wrote: They accept/know Job verses? God isn't positive. His a Sadist. He let's babies die from painful diseases and yet some people are thinking that he will give them positive energy.

When I told my mom about some cruel Bible verses she responded that the book was written a long time ago.

Without hell faith is "castrated" and fragile. No positive energy = move on.

(February 18, 2018 at 8:04 am)purplepurpose Wrote:

(February 18, 2018 at 8:02 am)Die Atheistin Wrote: When I told my mom about some cruel Bible verses she responded that the book was written a long time ago.

Without hell faith is "castrated" and fragile. No positive energy = move on.

I don't have faith and can live well like that. My family on the other hand can't.

Unfortunately, confirmation bias is a hell of a drug.