I had a mental breakdown

[KevinM1]

Fuck, Rob, that sounds terrible.

You're a good guy. Like Iro said on the previous page, I don't 'know' you, but I know enough to say that in all confidence. We'll all be here to listen to whatever you have to say, either in threads or PMs. We've got your back, man.

[AFTT47]

Geez, that's a bitch. It puts things in perspective for the rest of us who think we have shit to deal with.

Have you had a chance to talk with the mental health people yet? Maybe all those hours of discomfort brought on some kind of chemical imbalance?

[Ravenshire]

Rob, I don't know what you're going through and I won't insult your intelligence by claiming I do. I do have a pretty good idea what your wife is going through because my wife is the one dealing with the depression here. Depression's a bitch. Please do continue fighting the good fight. She deserves it and will thank you for it, even if you never hear those thanks.

[AFTT47]

Yeah, good call SOW. There's alot to be said for the nurturers in our society. I'm sure grateful for them because it's not something I could do. Good thing for diversity.

[Alex K]

I'm so sorry to hear that you have to go through this, as someone said above, you're one of the good ones. I read so many thoughtful things you write on a variety of subjects, I often notice that we think alike in many instances, and I can hardly believe that the same bright and rational person is tormented like that! So unfair. And what unprofessional losers make you feel bad for having such problems! They probably look at you and just see one more weirdo with mental problems, and they have no idea who you are. But we know a little bit about that, and hope you stick around and be careful!

[T.J.]

I'm glad you came out of it okay, Rob. While nowhere near that scale, I can somewhat relate to having a mental breakdown. Last year I couldn't get any sleep for nearly a week, and when I tried to get help from 'professionals' I kept getting the run around to the point I literally screamed at the top of my lungs because I was so fed up with all the bullshit. My dad finally just got some over the counter medicine and put me out like a light. So for all the doctors, nurses, and medicine I did get, some simple Wall Greens shit my dad got proved to be more effective. Now I know why my dad hates doctors and hates going to the hospital for anything unless he's literally dying. It's a fucking joke.

[Little lunch]

Rob, that's no good man.
It sounds like you had a really miserable time.
I hope that illness starts calming down for you.

[Athene]

I thinks it's unlikely that you would have had this break down, despite the serious nature of your other health issues, had you not also been suffering from sleep deprivation at the time. It's psychological effects are insidious, and people don't realize how bad off they are until they fuckin' lose it......and these are people with few or no underlying health problems. Or the onset of agonizing pain.
I suffer from severe insomnia and I know that after as little as 36 hours with little or no sleep, things can begin to seem a bit scary or surreal, and I'll feel as if I'm starting to lose my grip. And I'm in otherwise good health.
I would've been more shocked if you had not experienced some sort of temporary breakdown. Most people would.
Who are you supposed to be, Bruce Wayne? The Dos Equis guy or some shit like that?

[brewer]

Should I get you a satanic mechanic?

Just keep backing away from the edge and keep on top of the disease(s) as much as possible. Remember to laugh often.

[robvalue]

It warms my heart to read all your lovely comments and encouragement Thank you all so much! It makes a really big difference to me. Meeting you all here and developing lovely friendships with you guys has been one of the big factors in getting on top of my depression in general. Just by being there for me, you all give me strength. I hope I get to meet as many as you as possible one day!

I'm very glad to report that I actually feel in quite good spirits today! I can't quite believe that I've gone from the worst mental state I've ever been in, back up into a bearable one, and even one where I can smile and get a little enjoyment all in the space of a couple of days. That must be evidence that I'm getting stronger. Things have so easily thrown me into a tailspin at times before, so to come back from this is quite astounding.

My wife has been absolutely fantastic as always, I couldn't get through life without her. I think you guys are right, the combination of pain, sleep deprivation and many other factors caused a serious imbalance. But it does seem to have been a blip. For that I am completely fucking relieved.

I was thinking of making a thread about how my therapy is going, and this has sort of become it anyway I'm seeing my therapist on Monday, and we will no doubt spend the whole session deconstructing what happened. I'll let you all know how it goes.

Thank you all again so much for your support and kind compliments! This is a really special community. I have some fun outings coming up later today and tomorrow! I don't normally get to actually do anything besides just getting through the day due to my ME, so I'm excited.