Sorry I've been a pile of negatives lately.
Having said that... I hate. I don't hate anyone in particular (except my neighbors), but I feel hateful right now. But not.
I'm trying. (deleted a whole paragraph here)
Last week my sister was given some info about something I did a while back. It was so embarrassing for her to know this. Her husband also knows. Details were communicated. Details. Brother in law is the one that found out by chance. Or a drunk old friend with a big mouth. Also, she (my sister) was the only person in my family who I hadn't told about my sexuality. It was a work in progress due to her barely evolving (she used to be a pastor). Someone ratted me out. I will never be the one to tell her.
And last, but certainly not least. I saw someone from my past. This someone has been like a ghost I almost learned to ignore. He's a bad person and used blackmail to keep me from pressing charges against him a long time ago. He's in town. I saw him. He didn't see me. Small town. He probably did. Maybe not. Maybe yes. Fuck.
So that my friend is my negativity rant.
Now for the positive one:
I LOVE my friends, my family. I'm lucky. Oh so fucken lucky for so much patience. I don't deserve it. I don't. Shut up, Rob. I don't. :
Thank you for everything. Also, I'm about to have a beer.
Having said that... I hate. I don't hate anyone in particular (except my neighbors), but I feel hateful right now. But not.
I'm trying. (deleted a whole paragraph here)
Last week my sister was given some info about something I did a while back. It was so embarrassing for her to know this. Her husband also knows. Details were communicated. Details. Brother in law is the one that found out by chance. Or a drunk old friend with a big mouth. Also, she (my sister) was the only person in my family who I hadn't told about my sexuality. It was a work in progress due to her barely evolving (she used to be a pastor). Someone ratted me out. I will never be the one to tell her.
And last, but certainly not least. I saw someone from my past. This someone has been like a ghost I almost learned to ignore. He's a bad person and used blackmail to keep me from pressing charges against him a long time ago. He's in town. I saw him. He didn't see me. Small town. He probably did. Maybe not. Maybe yes. Fuck.
So that my friend is my negativity rant.
Now for the positive one:
I LOVE my friends, my family. I'm lucky. Oh so fucken lucky for so much patience. I don't deserve it. I don't. Shut up, Rob. I don't. :
Thank you for everything. Also, I'm about to have a beer.
"Hipster is what happens when young hot people do what old ladies do." -Exian