Feeling inferior to pretty women (or women I like)

[Banjo]

Yes, so what? I know many of you will call me a faggot or whatever. Idgf

I am a 21 year old male who has never kissed a girl or anything.  I often live off platonic loves. Liking a girl who I dont even know for years, and not being able to tolerate her presence because I start trembling, sweating, stuttering, cant think clearly, and feel like my legs have a 1000 KG ball attached to them (heavy). I often feel inferior to women who are pretty (in a specific way), or to the girl I like. Recently I even feel anger because is something I can barely control. Even when I read manga, or watch TV, etc. If there is a pretty female character, I almost immediatly feel annoyed by her. 

Take into account, though, that I am not shy in general. I speak well in public, and I can speak to anyone including women. EXCEPT, the girl I like. She is the only one who breaks me. 

Has anyone ever felt the same? It is like a love-hate sensation. You like her, and the same time you hate her.

Okay, I have had a long weekend, 12 gigs or something.

Here's the deal. Women like men and sex as much as men like women and sex.

My career was as a touring musician. I likely slept with X amount of women.

It is like anything else. It takes practice and the strength to ignore rejection. It matters not. Nobody is attractive to everyone else.

I lost my virginity at nine. 

I would guess you are placing women on a pedestal. Don't. They are human just as you are.

[Mr.wizard]

This is an easy fix, just date one. All of your preconceived notions about how angelic woman are will quickly disappear.

[Thumpalumpacus]

lol, John Cougar Mellencamp, Brian? That's what you're going with?

[Whateverist]

As of why I have never picked another girl, is because I have strong convictions. I do not want a relationship based on sex, or interests. Yes, I may pick a girl who is attractive, even if I dont really like her. And then what? Hope for me to eventually love her? In any case, this is more of a philosophical conversation, and I do not believe it adds to the main topic.

Not everyone likes sex all that much and I hear it is possible to live a happy life without it.

But I wonder what this "love" you speak of means to you.  Is it something you only feel in relationship to the one?  Is it something that is just amazingly better than what you feel in relationship to anyone else?  

Maybe you bottle up and restrict love in your life to where it all concentrates on this one person which you can't allow yourself to have.  Do you have any pets?  Seriously, get some love in your life which is ordinary and down to earth.  Gotta get your feet on the ground before you can scale the heights you've assigned to the one.

[Excited Penguin]

As of why I have never picked another girl, is because I have strong convictions. I do not want a relationship based on sex, or interests. Yes, I may pick a girl who is attractive, even if I dont really like her. And then what? Hope for me to eventually love her? In any case, this is more of a philosophical conversation, and I do not believe it adds to the main topic.

Not everyone likes sex all that much and I hear it is possible to live a happy life without it.

But I wonder what this "love" you speak of means to you.  Is it something you only feel in relationship to the one?  Is it something that is just amazingly better than what you feel in relationship to anyone else?  

Maybe you bottle up and restrict love in your life to where it all concentrates on this one person which you can't allow yourself to have.  Do you have any pets?  Seriously, get some love in your life which is ordinary and down to earth.  Gotta get your feet on the ground before you can scale the heights you've assigned to the one.

It's also possible to like sex a little too much and become a disgusting pervert who doesn't know any boundaries, isn't it, wtw?

[Whateverist]

Yeah, I like it but not too much. If I'd liked it a bit less when I was getting started I'm sure there would have been a whole lot more of it.

[Edwardo Piet]

@ OP

[Excited Penguin]

Yeah, I like it but not too much.  If I'd liked it a bit less when I was getting started I'm sure there would have been a whole lot more of it.

That's true. Glad we understand each other.

[Edwardo Piet]

[...]a disgusting pervert who doesn't know any boundaries[...]

False dichotomy.

You're welcome.

[Excited Penguin]

[...]a disgusting pervert who doesn't know any boundaries[...]

False dichotomy.

You're welcome.

Go read what that means again, buddy.