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August 27, 2013 at 10:19 am
(This post was last modified: August 27, 2013 at 10:20 am by themonkeyman.)
Wow, Its been a good number of weeks here and I never posted an Introduction...... Dont fall asleep on me.
My name is Dean a 25 yo software developer from Northern Ireland, UK.
My walk of faith started as a little Kid I adored my Grandparents and every sunday without fail they would take me to Church with them. I never really quite 'Got' god or jesus as a kid but meh I still believed in something.
From being a kid I always used to pray - I prayed to God not to Jesus actually many times I spoke really badly of him because I thought God was God and thats all who matters.
Growing up I had a belief in God but not specificly the christian god, When I got to Uni I decided to join the Christian Union. It was amazing (at first) and I became a Christian there and then - My walk over the last 6 years has been intresting - Lots of things Christians seen I could never see. When I raised questions I was always told I had a 'Warped' view of the Bible. I didnt understand why - Surely if it says X it does not mean Y however many christians believe X actually ment Y but also sometimes Z.
In Uni I couldent get this logic how people could have such blind beliefs, Most when questioned about a single pillar ran and hid pretty much because I was infringing their perfect little world.
I stayed a Christian through two Christian Relationships where the girl none the less cheated on me then blamed me for not being loving enough. And the second one the girl had mental issues.
The reason I hung on was because Christianity was the best way to meet Girls!
I then Committed the Unforgivable Sin about 5 months ago - Went into a ball of torment and hopelessness and then finally lost it with God (How could he make me feel so confused and guilty how come he put such a vague statement in the bible like that which actuallt risks eternity with no actual explination) After a while I started getting annoyed.
From when I first started being a Christian I read all different books e.g. the Apocrphia / Gnostic Scripture so I was well versed in the weaknesses of Christianity which I knew was a precurser to my lack of faith.
Then when I felt hopeless I prayed one last time (God please give me a sign that you exist - I am going to leave if you dont) And I got no sign.
After that I put my knowledge of the Pillars of Christianity to use against christianity and have started ripping down the walls of belief.
Its not easy but I am sure I will get there eventually. So I dont know what I believe now - I want to believe in something though I am leaning Increasingly closer that we are Energy that when we die our Energy goes onto the Astral Plane.
Einstein's Special Theory of Relativity would back my view point up on this.
Anyway - If you want to know more let me know,
-- Dean
My name is Dean a 25 yo software developer from Northern Ireland, UK.
My walk of faith started as a little Kid I adored my Grandparents and every sunday without fail they would take me to Church with them. I never really quite 'Got' god or jesus as a kid but meh I still believed in something.
From being a kid I always used to pray - I prayed to God not to Jesus actually many times I spoke really badly of him because I thought God was God and thats all who matters.
Growing up I had a belief in God but not specificly the christian god, When I got to Uni I decided to join the Christian Union. It was amazing (at first) and I became a Christian there and then - My walk over the last 6 years has been intresting - Lots of things Christians seen I could never see. When I raised questions I was always told I had a 'Warped' view of the Bible. I didnt understand why - Surely if it says X it does not mean Y however many christians believe X actually ment Y but also sometimes Z.
In Uni I couldent get this logic how people could have such blind beliefs, Most when questioned about a single pillar ran and hid pretty much because I was infringing their perfect little world.
I stayed a Christian through two Christian Relationships where the girl none the less cheated on me then blamed me for not being loving enough. And the second one the girl had mental issues.
The reason I hung on was because Christianity was the best way to meet Girls!
I then Committed the Unforgivable Sin about 5 months ago - Went into a ball of torment and hopelessness and then finally lost it with God (How could he make me feel so confused and guilty how come he put such a vague statement in the bible like that which actuallt risks eternity with no actual explination) After a while I started getting annoyed.
From when I first started being a Christian I read all different books e.g. the Apocrphia / Gnostic Scripture so I was well versed in the weaknesses of Christianity which I knew was a precurser to my lack of faith.
Then when I felt hopeless I prayed one last time (God please give me a sign that you exist - I am going to leave if you dont) And I got no sign.
After that I put my knowledge of the Pillars of Christianity to use against christianity and have started ripping down the walls of belief.
Its not easy but I am sure I will get there eventually. So I dont know what I believe now - I want to believe in something though I am leaning Increasingly closer that we are Energy that when we die our Energy goes onto the Astral Plane.
Einstein's Special Theory of Relativity would back my view point up on this.
Anyway - If you want to know more let me know,
-- Dean
Rants and Raves from an Ex-Christian http://walkofthemonkeyman.blogspot.co.uk/
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