Suicide

[Nope]

I'm not going to Hell because there isn't one. I feel the world has become such a mess that it's not worth living in anymore. I don't see a purpose. I've alienated my family and friends. Perhaps they'd all be better off with me gone. They certainly won't be worse off.

I have noticed that when my son gets depressed, he sees life through a dark cloud that doesn't always line up with reality. For example, he once had suicidal thoughts because he said he had no friends but when he was home, those same nonexistent friends called him to check on him or just say hi. So, yes, he had friends but for some reason, he couldn't see them.

The same thing is probably happening to you. You are viewing life through a negative filter and aren't able to see the good. Talk to someone. There is nothing wrong with going to a therapist.

As far as climate change goes, does it really make sense for the individuals who care about it to kill themselves so that all that is left are the people who don't give a damn?

Depression runs in my family. Does it in yours? Sometimes there is something off with the wiring of some people's brains that make them more likely to view the world more negatively. My son and oldest daughter have the same problem and they need medication to help them. Talk to a doctor. You may or may not need medication but if you do, there is nothing to be ashamed of in taking it.