RE: Share your experiences with God
August 11, 2015 at 1:01 pm
(This post was last modified: August 11, 2015 at 1:08 pm by Excited Penguin.)
I can attest to the fact that while I was a believer I was happier - this may actually be though because I was still a child and quite ignorant, and they say ignorance is bliss I believe...
So it was more of a general experience for me, then a particular one to describe. I think it was like the ultimate authority figure for me. Whenever I got into trouble and even slightly feared for my life I prayed maniacally and promised I would change my ways... Of course after everything was fine I promptly forwent those promises. Other experiences with god include saying my prayers at night whenever I remembered to do so, or when I did them with my brother, being a good little Christian and all that - he still is one, for all intents and purposes. But the praying part was more like a responsibility I felt I had than something I truly wanted to do out of a closeness to God. It was more like a chore than anything else.
But I never really got the whole churchgoing experience. I am from a mostly orthodox country and here we sit up in church, masses of people, and listen to the ceremonies, the singing and the readings from the bible, or whatever. The priests have long beards and are treated with very high esteem. It's a bloody hell for a kid, I'll tell you that much. It makes you go nuts to just sit there for hours, waiting and doing nothing but listen to incomprehensible gibberish incanted in weird tones.
I guess I never really confronted my beliefs until I met an atheist in real-life and talked to her about it. She was a classmate of mine in middle school. Her older brother was a physicist, if I remember correctly, so that may be the reason for this happy incident- I might still be a Christian to this day otherwise, and a completely different person at that too- you never know.
So it was more of a general experience for me, then a particular one to describe. I think it was like the ultimate authority figure for me. Whenever I got into trouble and even slightly feared for my life I prayed maniacally and promised I would change my ways... Of course after everything was fine I promptly forwent those promises. Other experiences with god include saying my prayers at night whenever I remembered to do so, or when I did them with my brother, being a good little Christian and all that - he still is one, for all intents and purposes. But the praying part was more like a responsibility I felt I had than something I truly wanted to do out of a closeness to God. It was more like a chore than anything else.
But I never really got the whole churchgoing experience. I am from a mostly orthodox country and here we sit up in church, masses of people, and listen to the ceremonies, the singing and the readings from the bible, or whatever. The priests have long beards and are treated with very high esteem. It's a bloody hell for a kid, I'll tell you that much. It makes you go nuts to just sit there for hours, waiting and doing nothing but listen to incomprehensible gibberish incanted in weird tones.
I guess I never really confronted my beliefs until I met an atheist in real-life and talked to her about it. She was a classmate of mine in middle school. Her older brother was a physicist, if I remember correctly, so that may be the reason for this happy incident- I might still be a Christian to this day otherwise, and a completely different person at that too- you never know.
