RE: If You Were A Theist
August 27, 2015 at 7:55 pm
(This post was last modified: August 27, 2015 at 7:57 pm by brewer.)
I'm gonna take this as a conversion and not waking up with my entire past life being theist (then there would be no change, I wouldn't know to behave different).
Personality: In the beginning elation. I think in the beginning anyone who converts has an uplifting feeling. If there is no positive gain then why voluntarily convert. Later on, melancholy. The constant thoughts of: not living up to the standards for entry (not even exactly knowing what the standards are, OMG was that a sin over and over), potential hell punishment, why do I deserve when others don't or its reverse, did I pray enough, did I pray right. I have enough self worth and insecurity issues now (thanks mom). I can't even imagine my mental state if I knew that big daddy was always watching, assessing and tabulating my behavior.
Morally: god only knows.
Personality: In the beginning elation. I think in the beginning anyone who converts has an uplifting feeling. If there is no positive gain then why voluntarily convert. Later on, melancholy. The constant thoughts of: not living up to the standards for entry (not even exactly knowing what the standards are, OMG was that a sin over and over), potential hell punishment, why do I deserve when others don't or its reverse, did I pray enough, did I pray right. I have enough self worth and insecurity issues now (thanks mom). I can't even imagine my mental state if I knew that big daddy was always watching, assessing and tabulating my behavior.
Morally: god only knows.
Being told you're delusional does not necessarily mean you're mental.