If You Were A Theist

[Ben Davis]

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Hello everyone, this is a spin off of this thread: http://atheistforums.org/thread-35404.html ...posted by Shuffle. 

While it is a a very difficult question to answer, I thought it was interesting to think about, and wanted to ask the rest of you and hear answers from the other side.  

Anyone can answer, of course, but I am most interested in hearing from those who have been atheist their whole lives, or at least, who have never been a devout/practicing theist. 

If you were a theist tomorrow, how would you change the rest of your life? Personality, morals, etc.

Thanks!

EDIT TO ADD: Any of the Abrahamic religions.

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I couldn't. I just don't have the ability to believe anymore. I was raised catholic so I remember what it felt like to be me and it felt exactly the same as I do in my subsequent disbelief. I'm still the same person however I no longer have to try to reconcile my views on human/civil rights, race/tribe, politics, creed, identity or persuasion with an opposing instruction from the supreme being plus I no longer have to feel scared of receiving an unjust punishment for it. In fact, the final nail in the coffin of my belief was the sheer injustice of it; that my innate & demonstrably, ethically positive sense of fairness & decency was going to get me eternally punished hammered home the fact that god's man-made and 'his' rules are primitive, fallible & contradictory attempts at social control.