I sure have mixed feelings about this.
I spent a great deal of time pondering this topic back in the 80s for obvious reasons.
No one ever asked me for help or advice, and I was somewhat surprised. Ken, CL, Ern all went off by themselves and took care of it on their own. I've never second guessed their decisions. I remain surprised there weren't more, actually.
Brian didn't. Not even close, he was gonna beat it right up until he didn't. If he'd asked for me to be with him if he had done it I would have. After he was gone I wasn't suicidal myself, despite my misery, it would have been inappropriate to have in regards to Brian. Despite not being suicidal afterwards, I'll admit being indifferent about living for months.
I think had Dennis not gone blind he would have. He had the KS real bad and was horribly disfigured, but he was mostly unaware, and medicated in any regard. Starving to death from multiple tumorous obstructions throughout his GI tract could not have been pleasant, but he never complained about that.
Dave didn't suicide, but he didn't put up much of a fight either. He wanted out of the situation any way possible as soon as possible and it didn't take long.
And then there's the other Ken. The only one I even briefly entertained the idea of offing myself.
He was the one who told me the virus would let him live as long as he was useful to it . . . .
This is a big subject. I've spent much time with it, and with others both HIV - and +, and I'll be damned if there is any good answer out there.
It's a CF all the way around.
I wish I could talk to Brian about it now.
I spent a great deal of time pondering this topic back in the 80s for obvious reasons.
No one ever asked me for help or advice, and I was somewhat surprised. Ken, CL, Ern all went off by themselves and took care of it on their own. I've never second guessed their decisions. I remain surprised there weren't more, actually.
Brian didn't. Not even close, he was gonna beat it right up until he didn't. If he'd asked for me to be with him if he had done it I would have. After he was gone I wasn't suicidal myself, despite my misery, it would have been inappropriate to have in regards to Brian. Despite not being suicidal afterwards, I'll admit being indifferent about living for months.
I think had Dennis not gone blind he would have. He had the KS real bad and was horribly disfigured, but he was mostly unaware, and medicated in any regard. Starving to death from multiple tumorous obstructions throughout his GI tract could not have been pleasant, but he never complained about that.
Dave didn't suicide, but he didn't put up much of a fight either. He wanted out of the situation any way possible as soon as possible and it didn't take long.
And then there's the other Ken. The only one I even briefly entertained the idea of offing myself.
He was the one who told me the virus would let him live as long as he was useful to it . . . .
This is a big subject. I've spent much time with it, and with others both HIV - and +, and I'll be damned if there is any good answer out there.
It's a CF all the way around.
I wish I could talk to Brian about it now.
The granting of a pardon is an imputation of guilt, and the acceptance a confession of it.
