Quote: Hah, that's true! But I cannot use alcohol, because of my anxiety medication. And you're right, a "god" would find a more effective method.
Well this assumes that God is trying to save everyone, which is not a Biblical teaching. Everyone God wills to save, He saves. Hence, why it's called Grace, it is unmerited favor. Rather than only reading Atheistic literature, I would encourage you to also pick up Christian literature and go from there. I would recommend, “The Holiness of God” by R.C. Sproul. I give you props for seeking answers though.
