Seems like you really need more help than this forum but i'll throw out a couple of things.
'No' is an answer. It sounds like you are depressed, I would look more into that. What are you doing with your career now?
'No' is an answer. It sounds like you are depressed, I would look more into that. What are you doing with your career now?
If water rots the soles of your boots, what does it do to your intestines?