D told me about this poll, and said I would find it interesting.
What he failed to mention, among other things, is that I dealt with the drinking and lying for 3 years. 3 times have I accused him wrongly. Many many times has he denied it, only to admit later he did.
Anyone who knows alcoholics, knows it's what they do. He admitted that himself.
D is a good man, he has many great qualities in him, which is why I stood by him so long and believed in him that he would stop and seek help.
Promises and promises, broken over and over. We wanted to move to the next step..but I couldn't until he stopped and was sober for sometime. His drinking was stopping this.
I forgave him over and over..drinking caused problems of communication and not so nice behavior. But he also gave me such happiness and love I never experienced before.
There were reasons as to why I didn't believe him that night, but I was wrong to accuse him. I make mistakes. We broke up, he blocked me..so no communication. Until he contacted me again. Nothing was said, we talked nicely and it was not brought up. Until the day he posted on a forum we belong to..that he had been sober for 2 weeks (I think it was). I text him congratulating him.
Then he went full blast on me and got very ugly. I did apologize to him but he wouldn't listen. He just kept on and on.
He won't let go..as the thread clearly shows.
Tonight, he still won't let go after bringing it up again and once again, anger. He won't accept that I was sincere and thinks I am a hypocrite, as I didn't believe him the first time weeks ago.
I love him with all my heart..I am a very caring person and a very forgiving one. But with all the forgiving and letting so much go, because that's what you have to do to make a relationship work, he still won't let go of a mistake I made..I give up. I don't want it held over my head and constantly made to feel like I did such a huge nasty thing to him.
The worse thing I ever said to him..was that if he didn't stop drinking, he will be a lonely drunk. That is also something he won't forgive me for. I said that after he kept on pushing and pushing and nastier and nastier in an argument.
We all make mistakes, but it's about fixing things and moving forward....I am no saint, I made mistakes but ive always said sorry, even if he doesn't accept them the first time.
I love you D...you did make me happy and you are a good man.
Peace
What he failed to mention, among other things, is that I dealt with the drinking and lying for 3 years. 3 times have I accused him wrongly. Many many times has he denied it, only to admit later he did.
Anyone who knows alcoholics, knows it's what they do. He admitted that himself.
D is a good man, he has many great qualities in him, which is why I stood by him so long and believed in him that he would stop and seek help.
Promises and promises, broken over and over. We wanted to move to the next step..but I couldn't until he stopped and was sober for sometime. His drinking was stopping this.
I forgave him over and over..drinking caused problems of communication and not so nice behavior. But he also gave me such happiness and love I never experienced before.
There were reasons as to why I didn't believe him that night, but I was wrong to accuse him. I make mistakes. We broke up, he blocked me..so no communication. Until he contacted me again. Nothing was said, we talked nicely and it was not brought up. Until the day he posted on a forum we belong to..that he had been sober for 2 weeks (I think it was). I text him congratulating him.
Then he went full blast on me and got very ugly. I did apologize to him but he wouldn't listen. He just kept on and on.
He won't let go..as the thread clearly shows.
Tonight, he still won't let go after bringing it up again and once again, anger. He won't accept that I was sincere and thinks I am a hypocrite, as I didn't believe him the first time weeks ago.
I love him with all my heart..I am a very caring person and a very forgiving one. But with all the forgiving and letting so much go, because that's what you have to do to make a relationship work, he still won't let go of a mistake I made..I give up. I don't want it held over my head and constantly made to feel like I did such a huge nasty thing to him.
The worse thing I ever said to him..was that if he didn't stop drinking, he will be a lonely drunk. That is also something he won't forgive me for. I said that after he kept on pushing and pushing and nastier and nastier in an argument.
We all make mistakes, but it's about fixing things and moving forward....I am no saint, I made mistakes but ive always said sorry, even if he doesn't accept them the first time.
I love you D...you did make me happy and you are a good man.
Peace
