(December 31, 2015 at 5:58 pm)MysticKnight Wrote: I assumed the most beloved of basic assumptions, even perpetual identity, maybe false at one point.
I was at a state of ultimate confusion: http://www.christianforums.com/threads/y...n.7699661/
I didn't take anything for granted. I was highly distressed to know the truth with certainty, but admitted I didn't.
I realized somethings I don't care to know if true, but there is somethings that are essential for me to know to be true.
God is the basis of certainty in those essential things.
That post of yours in the other forum was interesting. I was in the same exact spot, and went the other way. One of the a-ha moments for me was the realization that just because the world would be lousy if it was devoid of meaning/morality/purpose in no way affected the likelihood of it being true. And once that happened, I just couldn't get past my belief in God boiling down mostly to some serious wishful thinking.
Sadly once the genie is out of the bottle, there's no going back to a preferable irrational truth. So not only is the journey all for naught, it's actually detrimental to me to have taken it. There were plenty of stops along the way where I'd be a happier person. It's one of the reasons I avoid talking about this stuff with people I care about, because I don't want them to end up where I am. I certainly teach my kid a bunch of things I don't believe.
That's why I'm curious about others, as you rarely hear about how people ended up discovering something they thought was awful was true.
