Even if you choose not to believe in god, you’re actually believing in god

[Esquilax]

MaelstromAs wise and mature as Blueyedlion wishes he was, he is still arguing his personal reality as valid over the reality in which most of us live without delusion.

How so? Everyone has their own 'personal reality' the only difference is most people are trying to figure themselves out in comparison to others, that road goes absolutely nowhere. Reality is shaped by the collective experiences of conscious choices, but no one can perceive the reason behind anyone elses choices made outside of their own. So when you judge and compare and say, this behavior is wrong regardless what i think. That behavior you are judging, is built upon so many influences, so many interactions and factors, that for you to make some sort of vague understanding of the very small amount of information available to you, will only be one side of a reality you cant imagine to piece together because you weren't the one living that experience yourself to know.

There are layers upon layers i can go much further, explaining why this relates to there being a god. But before going into that, you can already see how consciousness is the most important factor in understanding reality and oneself. If consciousness wasn't in anyway relevant then it would be easy for you to dismiss this. What does the significance of consciousness then tell you about the nature of reality? The main reason atheists don't think in this way, is because they think consciousness is a symptom of the brain, so judging just means using your brain as a tool to figure out what ever you're exposed to without restraint, and if someone is blind to what you're exposed to, or behaves in a way you wouldn't, you're then thinking 'well we both have capable brains so everyone should behave in some uniform way if we gather enough evidence - everything should exist the same way for everyone uniformly because our brains are just observing what's already there." Science already says this is wrong and yet continues to apply itself as if it agreed, all because if the scientific community were to openly admit that consciousness manifests reality, then god comes into play, or at least a universal mind.

And for a few main reasons i can get into some other time, that openly accepting there is likely cause of their being a god, would simply cripple their ego. Simple as that.

You say science backs you: do you have any peer reviewed mainstream research backing you up? Or are you just attempting to piggyback on science by fiat?