(June 10, 2016 at 11:11 am)mlmooney89 Wrote:(June 9, 2016 at 8:30 pm)Wyrd of Gawd Wrote: On the contrary I'm a very compassionate and logical person. I can understand why a woman would want to forgive her husband for such an act against her. But, as for me, the second time it happened I would drive a couple of steak knives through his eyeballs when he was sleeping. There wouldn't be a third time and it sure as hell wouldn't last for years under any circumstances.
So I was emotionally, physically, and sexually abused for four years does that make me an idiot too? There is a difference between being a confident person and having the strength to fight back and being so emotionally abused that you think you are not worth saving. Where the one attacking you is physically overpowering,where using one hand the can render you motionless. There isn't much you can do when someone two- three times your size picks you up off the ground by your neck to slam you into a wall. There isn't much you can do when they are your means to food, shelter, and threaten that if you say even one word they will hurt those you love. When the cops tell you that they don't have enough evidence to put him away his threats become even worse. When he threatens to kill someone if you step out of line they have you where you don't get to make decisions to leave. Trust me I have had the knife in my hand. He was asleep and I could have. Killing someone though, even your attacker, is a very difficult thing to stomach and I couldn't do it. I suffer from anxiety, nightmares, emotional disconnections, I developed OCD due to my anxiety, and I am co-dependent. I wasn't like this before the abuse. Abuse breaks the victim and a broken person has a harder time freeing themselves. It is easy to say 'well you are stupid for not leaving' while you are safe and strong in knowing who you are. Until the police fail you and you are standing there knowing your attacker actually will kill someone you don't know what it means to be in a mental prison.
People are animals. Docile animals get eaten by predators. Don't get eaten. Even a zebra can fight off a lion.
