Take some fucking responsibility!

[Wyrd of Gawd]

No but I have done unforgivable things and said unacceptable things and held unacceptable opinions
too. And nothing I can say or do can change it. Now the passage of time allows me to come to terms
with it but this does not excuse it. The only positive thing is that I regret all of it but now I remember
saying the most unacceptable thing ever only this year thinking nothing of it. Then maybe I still have
work to be done. But at my age I should be thinking about death not how to avoid saying such things

Convert to the right religion and the deity will forgive you and probably let you into his version of heaven.