Why do you actually believe in God?

[Excited Penguin]

I thought of it simply like of a power. But it was intoxicating at the same time, I never even questioned it. It was right there, in my mind, affecting every part of my being. Atheists rarely remember this, I imagine, if any of them had the same feeling as a believer, but I sometimes get this kind of memories at very odd times. This one I remembered a couple of months ago, after years of being an atheist. It was just like the time I remembered what it was like to be a very young child, the whole mental experience and everything. I even saw my reflection in the mirror in an odd way as long as I kept it up.

So anyway, being a theist (for me, at least) was an incredibly distinct experience. There's a sort of fog in your mind, like an aura or something, that you just think is out there somewhere, you just imagine pervading everything in your world and yet being apart from it. It's a very curious thing, really, and I wonder if everyone experiences faith or whatever that was differently. Needless to say, I'm incredibly glad I escaped it. It's more like a mental illness than I ever wish to experience.