Where else?

[purplepurpose]

Im like the idea of "merging" with women better.

That is good too purple but consider this.  
The sexual pleasure is controlled by one of the lower gland along the spinal cord.
The spiritual pleasure to merge in the ocean of cosmic consciousness on the other hand
is when the pineal gland that is on the very top of the spinal cord is fully activated.

The higher you go and the more pleasure you experience.  
You know the old saying.........one egg today or the chicken tomorrow.

Got it purple?  

You talking about the end where you lose your individuality and independance. This requirment is absurd.