Do You Ever Miss God?

[Amarok]

For those of you who have a history in a particular religion and moved away from it, I mean do you ever miss the feeling of believing you had a personal relationship with god?

A few weeks ago, to my surprise, I went through a period of nostalgia.  I shouldn’t have been surprised.  Twenty-five years of indoctrination and programing in fear and guilt, joy and gratitude don’t just go away just because I realize intellectually that Christianity isn’t true.

If I shared those feelings and the dreams I used to have of being left in the rapture with a Christian, they will have an explanation for it. This is why indoctrination is so important in religion. We’re programmed with the strongest emotions and religionists know the feelings won’t go away—not permanently. All it takes is a trigger, a song, a memory. Then the Christians can say aha, in your heart of hearts you know god exists. And if I don’t know better, I’ll have to believe their interpretation of what I feel.

But I do know better and I resent being played with. To program me to believe something and then use that programming as proof of my belief is disingenuous. Of course, now they can interpret my resentment as proof that I hate god.

Ever find it hard to hate something that does not exist? Or is that just an 'atheist punishment' something you 'good people' do to punish God?

Did you know not all Christians will be raptured? their will be a remnant left to help people like you (people who know better but are pouting and 'hating a non existent God') to help find your way home...

...Or maybe it is you fence sitters who will become the remnant. Eitherway It's ok to hate God (for now anyways) He knows you do. Yet Grace abounds (your allowed to hate God for the moment, as this is apart of any real growth period.)

All I'm saying is it will be a whole hellva lot easier to resolve this anger and work things out now, when you have access to people with a 'better' understanding of God, then after the 'event of your indoctrination' will come, and you are given the task of being among the remnant.

I don't hate God. I hate a fictional depiction in a story book in fact several story books . Just the way I hate jar jar binks and he also likely doesn't exist. You can in fact hate something that doesn't exist we do it all the time.