Some recent events are helping me cope better.
Went to my mom's nursing home to pay her last bill, was met with lots of smiles from the staff and everyone asking me how I was doing. Now have a new Facebook friend and most likely will hang out with him in the future. He was my mom's occupational therapist. He used to live in the same city I did long before we knew each other, and hates right wingers as much as I do, although he believes himself. I'll be working on that.
And went to the bank to take care of mom's finances. The guy helping me turned out he was a fan of Neil Degrasse Tyson and watches Star Talk, knew who Sagan was.
Still though, while I was at the nursing home outside talking to one of her former mates and her daughter, I found myself turning to the door to go in, in my mind I was on auto pilot wanting to go back to my mom's room, had to stop myself of course. I still get those feelings even at home, of the phone ringing wanting it to be her.
Went to my mom's nursing home to pay her last bill, was met with lots of smiles from the staff and everyone asking me how I was doing. Now have a new Facebook friend and most likely will hang out with him in the future. He was my mom's occupational therapist. He used to live in the same city I did long before we knew each other, and hates right wingers as much as I do, although he believes himself. I'll be working on that.
And went to the bank to take care of mom's finances. The guy helping me turned out he was a fan of Neil Degrasse Tyson and watches Star Talk, knew who Sagan was.
Still though, while I was at the nursing home outside talking to one of her former mates and her daughter, I found myself turning to the door to go in, in my mind I was on auto pilot wanting to go back to my mom's room, had to stop myself of course. I still get those feelings even at home, of the phone ringing wanting it to be her.
