My mom is dying, going to need an ear.

[Brian37]

While many can see I am coping better, it still hits me that I can't call my mom up, and that happened just now.

Yesterday or the day before I had posted my only favorite Country song, but had done so with this same song last year when I first heard it. "About To Find Out" by Margo Price, and just like last year, when I did that, just today again, had posted it and SHE liked my post. 

But this is where it hurts, when I am at home and have anything interesting, a debate, a joke or something like this, I cant call her  like I normally do, and that still hurts.

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No Longer In Service, By Brian 37

I sit at my desk
On the internet
You in your apartment
Is the way it should be

I see something funny
Or something that interests me
News story, debate, a video
But it's too late

I cant call you
After an Ohio score
I cant call you
Tell you about a debate

It's too late
I cant call you
I desperately want to
It's too late

I cannot express my
Pleasure of Margo Price
"About To Find Out"
Country song I find nice

I cannot call you
For if I tried
"No longer in service"
Is what I would find

You cannot call me
To say I love you
I cannot call you
Two minutes later

After you hang up
To say the same
To make sure I said so
In case I forgot

No longer in service
Time has our number
I might not be able to call you
But I will always remember