Those who never believed in a God

[Der/die AtheistIn]

My family never read the bible, but we went to church sometimes even though I always hated it. Everything they told me either didn't make sense or could easily be determined to be an outright lie. I was so young that whatever god concept I had was so underdeveloped it was indistinguishable from a stranger on the other side of the world. It was so insignificant I was able to abandon it pretty easily, especially when my uncle proved beyond a doubt that what they were feeding me about this god was just fundamentally incompatible with their actual idea of it. The rest of the time was spent being teased and bullied for being a "bitched" (which I just heard about recently on here) and suffering in silence whenever we happened to go to church.

From that point, pretty much anything adults did scared the fuck out of me. Speaking in tongues, even just bowing their heads in prayer, or speaking in such a way that had such real conviction, to thin air, it was all awful. I had no patience for it, it was truly agonizing to sit through even something as relatively minor as a prayer. When you see grown adults acting less rationally and maturely than a prepubescent child, you know, deeply, that something is terribly, terribly wrong with the world.

I know how it feels. My parents force me to go to church with them (we don't go very often, but still). I've told my mom that I'm agnostic (wich is true, I'm an agnostic atheist), and she was ok with it. She told me that we may never know if there's a God or not, but imaginig that He exist gives us positive energy. I find this argument ridiculous, but I appreciate that she let's me question the religion. I think she would accept if I would tell her that I'm an atheist. My dad on the other hand isn't so permissive. He's in betwee a fundamentalist and a moderate. He doesn't believe in Hell and doesn't hate other Religions. He also doesn't see atheists as evil and doesn't complain about the LGBT. But he thinks that prayer is the most important thing and he praises the Lord often.