North Korea launches ballistic missile across northern Japan, falls into sea

[Anomalocaris]

So... you are saying you'd rather die than face the horrors of war? Mabe I am misunderstanding.

Yes apart from the fact that:

But you might botch it..

He has a point here.

So my next question would be "Would the worst possible botching be worse than what I'd suffer in a nuclear war?"

Yes. In a nuclear war you might be painlessly incinerated in a millisecond. People who tried to blow their own brains out have missed and ended up with a deep, ghastly open trench across where their eye balls and sinuses use to be for life.