My dad wants me to marry another christian

[Der/die AtheistIn]

I felt sexual attraction on some occasions (just to be clear, I never had sex with anyone, just felt the need to). I said that I either had no crush, or my crushes weren't "serious". Sometimes I've had fantasies about dating certain people without sexual intercouse. However, these fantasies would come and go rapidly and I wasn't really invested in them in the first place. I was a teenager at that time, so I'm pretty sure that my hormones were playing with me. I don't know if what I've experienced could be considered romantic love or not, but I'm certain it was close, and I can't say that I dislike the idea of dating someone, so I doubt I'm aromantic.

Ah I see. Sorry for the misunderstanding. Nonetheless, it seems very odd that you're feeling any sort of confusion about this, especially since you are a grown adult and no longer a kid/teenager. I mean, I remember my first crush when I was 4 years old... and there was never a single question in my mind of what I was feeling or that I was heterosexual. So it's hard for me to imagine another person being so unsure of their sexuality. If I had to guess, I would say I still do think there is some level of asexuality at play here. Might be something for you to look into and learn more about. 

As for your father, I would put it out of my mind for now. Since you're not even dating anyone at the moment (and never have), it seems like what he said to you isn't relevant to your life as of now. My advice is for you to let that go for now and just focus on trying to figure yourself out first. When you are dating someone and things get serious, then you should think about having a talk with your father about it. If he is a good parent he will love you and be there for you regardless of who you are with. It may be a hard pill for him to swallow at first if you aren't with someone he'd prefer you to be with, but if he loves you he will get over it in time.

No need to apologize.

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Ah I see. Sorry for the misunderstanding. Nonetheless, it seems very odd that you're feeling any sort of confusion about this, especially since you are a grown adult and no longer a kid/teenager. I mean, I remember my first crush when I was 4 years old... and there was never a single question in my mind of what I was feeling or that I was heterosexual. So it's hard for me to imagine another person being so unsure of their sexuality. If I had to guess, I would say I still do think there is some level of asexuality at play here. Might be something for you to look into and learn more about. 

As for your father, I would put it out of my mind for now. Since you're not even dating anyone at the moment (and never have), it seems like what he said to you isn't relevant to your life as of now. My advice is for you to let that go for now and just focus on trying to figure yourself out first. When you are dating someone and things get serious, then you should think about having a talk with your father about it. If he is a good parent he will love you and be there for you regardless of who you are with. It may be a hard pill for him to swallow at first if you aren't with someone he'd prefer you to be with, but if he loves you he will get over it in time.

No need to apologize. Also, I'm only 18 and I'm in the last year of highschool, so I'm only in my first year of adulthood. And while I'm a bit confused about my sexuality, I can't say I suffer because of it.