Anyone makes mental health jokes...

[Rev. Rye]

I condemn myself and judge myself harshly for the onset and the prolonging of the illness.  I consider myself almost fully recovered from the illness despite the need of constantly taking medications. And I believe one day I will be completely healed of the affliction but still for protecting myself and guaranteeing safety, I will not stop taking medications.

Well, remember, that's probably the best you'll get. You never really recover from mental illness. You may take medication for it and go back to the way you were before it hit you, but you stop taking your meds at your own peril. I stopped taking my antidepressants after I reached the "can't fucking stand" stage with my Viibryd/Abilify regimen, but I fell into a deeper depression, and eventually found something that worked for me before it was too late.