Sorry to hear this. And don't know enough about the 17 years and what treatment or types of treatment you have received.
Just a thought, there is a new medication out (at least in the USA, not sure where you live) for treatment resistant depression. Just approved within the last week(?). Talk to your psychiatrist, might be worth a shot. It's a modified for of ketamine in a nasal spray, Spravato. Works on the NMDA receptor.
https://www.spravatohcp.com/?&utm_source...esketamine
https://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/909933
Wishing you the best.
Just a thought, there is a new medication out (at least in the USA, not sure where you live) for treatment resistant depression. Just approved within the last week(?). Talk to your psychiatrist, might be worth a shot. It's a modified for of ketamine in a nasal spray, Spravato. Works on the NMDA receptor.
https://www.spravatohcp.com/?&utm_source...esketamine
https://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/909933
Wishing you the best.
Being told you're delusional does not necessarily mean you're mental.