Do you wish there's a god?

[Alan V]

We are biological creatures, all our reactions are biological. Saying you suspect your emotional reactions is not much different than saying you suspect your biological reactions, a state of perpetual doubt, and uncertainty.

So is your desire for utility, for useful things, and not truth? If believing a lie is more useful than believing a truth, why would you desire truth?

If you doubt that truth has intrinsic aesthetic quality about it, then you should also doubt that truth is intrinsic useful. Your desire are for what conscience to and useful, not necessarily truthful.

You also haven’t mentioned anything about moral truths.

Care to provide a moral truth, and indicate why it’s absent of any aesthetic property, yet can be called moral?

The real world is complex enough that we should employ doubt and uncertainty to address it effectively. That is a truth better represented in atheistic perspectives than in theistic perspectives. Since truth is relative, it is also continually changing. So you have to be on your toes and pay attention.

I do not believe that lies are more utilitarian than truths, to individuals or societies. They are only "useful" within societies which have lost their way morally, and even in such societies an honest person can find plenty of ways to get by honestly. So why lie at all, unless you are lying to yourself about the utility of lies?

Often lies are aesthetically pleasing to less-than-honest individuals. They make things seem nicer than they really are.

For moral truths, see my post above.

I agree with Gae Bolga that you are equivocating the word "good" as you apply it between moral and aesthetic judgments, so your last question is faulty IMO.