Another question for Christians

[Cinjin]

Christ lowered Himself to the status of a man, Christ said that He came not to be served but to serve. See any similarity between this statement and my above statement.
To hold a grudge against someone a person believes he/she is superior to the offender, this is a natural thing with humans, also the offender feels superior to the one offended, that's the result of an action that offends.To forgive should not necessarily mean the offender ask for forgiveness, true forgiveness is given not asked for, for that to happen one will have to humble him/herself and leave the feeling of superiority behind. Christ dying on the cross was not a ritual, He humbly bleed to death for us, He gave us forgiveness by humility.

See DP ... he still didn't remotely answer the question in your OP. My point is made. It is absolutely pointless talking to him.

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I've had no 'road to Damascus' experience.

Of course you haven't. That story is a fabrication. Also, did you ever wonder why you aren't worthy of such a revelation? Seems unfair does it not?

I have a yearning to know God, my Creator, and try as I might to ignore it, or give it a back seat, it comes to the fore. It's like an irresistable 'drawing'.

I understand this better than anyone ... it still doesn't mean that I choose to believe silly stories that were CLEARLY contrived of men.

When I read about the person and life of Yeshua (Jesus in Aramaic), it cries out 'truth' to me.

Your next two sentences are the ONLY reason that it "cries out truth" ...

A few years ago, I 'asked' Jesus - if He was real (I explained that I wasn't sure if He existed), that He would save me and my family and bring us into His Kingdom. My dad died in April, and I have a hope of being reunited with my dad (My dad believed in Jesus).

You see ... you like many millions of others have based your entire belief structure on fear. The fear of death, the fear of hell, the fear of never seeing your father or your family again. You are simply - afraid. That's a shitty reason to find faith and it will not hold up throughout the years ... especially if you continue to seek knowledge from sources outside of the brainwashing church of jesus.

So, I have a hope that whispers: eternity with my Creator Jesus and my family. That hope has got much stronger lately. Also, I've been reading some articles on ancient Hebrew culture and language, and things are more in 'colour' now, whereas before they were more grey.

Funny how your mind is so locked up by your fathers beliefs that you assume that your salvation from death can only be found in researching the teachings of christianity. As if Buddhism or Hinduism aren't valid alternatives simply because you weren't born in those respective countries. You are deceiving yourself. If you truly want to find what you are looking for, you have to consider all options. Christianity is just one ridiculous religion, and I can tell you for sure, if you start looking outside of christianity you may find the peace you are looking for.
What you have now is based on fear and mark my words ... it will not last. Do you want a fire escape policy or do you want to have some degree of real peace? Do you LOVE jesus or is he just a way to hedge your bets?

You wanna research - don't lie to yourself. Research it all, not just the ramblings of Jewish goat herders circa 300 AD.