Hello athesist planet. Just lost my faith. Now What?

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Hello Forum:

I'm now at the end of the process of losing my faith. I used to be a Muslim. Now, Who the hell knows??!   I from a very conservative religious country. It shall not be named (Hint: desert+oil) It took me five or six years to arrive here. I was on the fence for two years.
I was a very ideological Muslim. Although, I wasn't practicing much. However, I was very enthusiastic about "Islam and its glory".
Anyway, here I am today, writing in an atheist forum!
I need to hear from those who have been through this phase. What should I do now? I can't be "business as usual". What should I expect? How should I approach life now? The only approach I had my entire life is the Islamic religious approach. Now, How should I live my life? Where should I take my morals from? I don't think atheists have no morals BTW but I have no idea how do they approach morality.

Now, it seems like I have to rethink my whole life. My whole future. 

Keep in mind that I can't come out as an atheist, otherwise, I'm going to lose everyone I care about. Damn religion.

 

Anyone went through a similar experience and have any advice for me?

In modern times, between someone  having the ability to say "I don't believe in Jesus" in America,  versus someone who says in Saudi Arabia or Iran or Pakistan "I don't believe in Allah", at this point in history, at this period in time, being a former Christian, and I ditched that in my early 20s, long ago, YOU have a tougher road, not in your own logic, but in the laws and society you live under.

I never wanted to cut my biological family off.  But back when I met them, because I was adopted, I was born in 1966, but didn't find them until 1995. When I did seek them out as an adult, it turned out they were very religious, and my adoptive mother while Catholic never forced me to stay in religion. But once I met my biological family, it didn't take long to figure out that we had nothing in common. I never hated them, but I have no contact with them either. 

Look at it this way. Those you love will stick with you. My late adoptive mother died a Catholic knowing I was a former Catholic and now atheist. I loved her over everything and she was my biggest hero. 

Never look at family or friends or co workers as gangs who always have to 100% agree with you. But at the same time, nobody has the right to demand your silence or submission or to abuse you. You have the right to your own autonomy. But the reason I have no contact with my biological family, isn't because I hate them, but because we don't get along.

Life of Brain.