A really hard question on Satan and deception.

[lucent]

Once again it comes back to what YOU choose to BELIEVE. No problem, as long as you assume to tell me about my life which you know nothing about ... I'll go ahead return the favor. Let me tell you about yours...

You grew up an insecure boy who was picked on by the "cool kids". Your whole life since middle school has been an endurance of humiliation and pathetic attempts at success. You have longed for life to "make sense" and to know that those who have victimized you would pay for your humiliation. You've always longed for an eternal reward because you've never been able to cut it here in the real world. Your parents were wishy washy when it came to religious matters and you've always wanted a parental figure that loved you unconditionally. You happened to be born into a country that was predominantly christian and you found your savior ... not because he found you, but because you are one of the billions of pathetic humans on this planet that can't deal with reality.

Now remember what you said to me when you try to deny my description of your life ... as that will be my response to you. What is it you said to me you arrogant fucker? ... "It's not what I believe, it's because I know human nature. Your whitewashed version of the events doesn't match the emotional responses you have given me, nor your testimony about your life in general."

Deny my description of your life all you want ... I now proclaim myself the rights that you have given yourself. Your life is whatever the fuck I say it is and there's not a god damn word you can say about it.

Are you picking up on the theme of this whole post?!?! You are an arrogant piece of shit to assume you know my life and the relationship I have with my father! My father is a lot like you. He loves his stupid god more than he could EVER love me and my two siblings. The pain that he alone has caused this family is immeasurable.

"My only concern is god"

It doesn't bother me, Cinjin..my life doesn't match any of your stereotypes. If you spent the rest of your life trying to dream up what I've experienced you still wouldn't come close.

I'll say it again, the reason you deny God is because of sin and nothing else. If you ever decide that the truth is better than sin, God will forgive you. Until then, He is going to let you believe the lie and be content with spiritual poverty.