Random Thoughts

[zwanzig]

 People complaining of being bored irritate me. Intolerant of me I know. I tend to find such people also tend to be boring. It's also insulting for a person  to say when one is sitting right there. At such times I like to leave.

As far as I'm aware bored is not an emotion, but a mixture of at least two; fear and anger. Or not

OF course I get bored. To snap of it I sometimes have a quiet wank. I've found that people at the shopping centre are not very accepting.

I sometimes see it as a passive-aggressive poke when it is said to me. Like, "Hey, entertain me!" Which is partly what makes me grumpy about social interactions. The feeling of being sapped of energy, of needing to entertain someone. What I wouldn't give to meet a special someone who we could spend hours together not needing to directly interact every moment, just doing our own thing in our own corners. The closest I've come is my dog.

I have always been able to entertain myself. Crafts, sewing, reading, some computer games, etc. As a kid, I was grounded a lot so I learned how to occupy myself. Lately I find there are some days when I am fidgety but I think it may be being essentially trapped at home for the better part of two years.

My girls both have to have something to do and preferably people to be doing it with. They can't seem to come up with ways to spend time alone. My son is more like me and is quite content finding different things to keep himself busy.

I dunno if you would call it introverted or what, but it definitely seems to require some training or familiarity with spending time alone. I don't think "I'm bored" is something I've ever said to someone else. I usually skip letting them know that I desire to do something other than the current thing occupying us and get right to "hey, wanna do ___" It feels easier and faster.

I am willing to accept that some folks don't have this familiarity with alone activities and prefer to spend time with others(I don't) or that they lack an element of industrious creativity where they can come up with something they feel like doing at any moment rather than telling everyone they need entertaining and waiting to see what happens in response to that. Not everyone is gifted the same. I will fully admit my navigation in social situations is probably not on par with someone who seeks after that energy of groups and friends and craic.