Random Thoughts

[Ahriman]

Why couldn't I have been given parents who would be willing and able to provide more for me than just the bare minimum? I've been having to supplement the meager portion given to me by my parents by prostituting myself, which I've been doing for about a month, but I'm already starting to think I can't do it anymore. My body can't handle it. Getting a real job is a laughable notion. I am not a peasant.

How old are you?  And why aren't you able to provide for yourself?

I'm 31 years old. My bipolar disorder is very advanced, in fact my psychiatrist even said I should've been in treatment for the BD much sooner. My BD has rendered me borderline totally incapable of holding a normal job. Even when I worked at the bakery, the work was very light and my co-workers were all my friends, so there was no pressure to perform. I don't really "need" the extra money, but it does help pay for the cigarettes I smoke, as well as the food I want to eat.