I know that's not a word but lately I've been wondering about my deism and whether or not I believe it anymore. I know that may sound strange but I have heard that the process of deconversion is a slow one, the transition is often imperceptible. I'm starting to wonder if the universe is really a grand machine and rather something that just came together and we, those on this pale blue dot, won the cosmic lottery. I'm starting to question if the human mind is really something so fantastic, that reason and critical thinking are fortunate by products and not some kind of "gift" from some mysterious cosmic mind.
It could just be my state of mind. I've been fighting depression for years now and in the last few weeks it seems to have gotten worse, to the point of my feeling physical symptoms. It's for this reason that I'm slow to make any shift in identity official.
Of course, nothing would change in any practical sense. It's not like there's any church I belong to. I've never believed in any afterlife or a personal relationship with God (I've said before that Nature's God is a hard-ass and isn't going to carry you on any beach). Yet somehow things seem a bit more drab without God being "out there somewhere".
It will be a bit inconvenient as I've made the critical mistake of using my beliefs in my moniker, both here and on YouTube. "Atheist Paladin" is already taken too.
Just a rambling post as I sort this out.
It could just be my state of mind. I've been fighting depression for years now and in the last few weeks it seems to have gotten worse, to the point of my feeling physical symptoms. It's for this reason that I'm slow to make any shift in identity official.
Of course, nothing would change in any practical sense. It's not like there's any church I belong to. I've never believed in any afterlife or a personal relationship with God (I've said before that Nature's God is a hard-ass and isn't going to carry you on any beach). Yet somehow things seem a bit more drab without God being "out there somewhere".
It will be a bit inconvenient as I've made the critical mistake of using my beliefs in my moniker, both here and on YouTube. "Atheist Paladin" is already taken too.
Just a rambling post as I sort this out.
Atheist Forums Hall of Shame:
"The trinity can be equated to having your cake and eating it too."
... -Lucent, trying to defend the Trinity concept
"(Yahweh's) actions are good because (Yahweh) is the ultimate standard of goodness. That’s not begging the question"
... -Statler Waldorf, Christian apologist
"The trinity can be equated to having your cake and eating it too."
... -Lucent, trying to defend the Trinity concept
"(Yahweh's) actions are good because (Yahweh) is the ultimate standard of goodness. That’s not begging the question"
... -Statler Waldorf, Christian apologist
