I didn't ever enjoy church.
I always felt guilty for questioning if maybe the church had it wrong about homosexuals.
I felt guilty about myself being sometimes attracted to men.
I kept wondering why a god would invent prayer if it knew everything already and was omnipresent and omnipotent
I was often suicidal and depressed (and I still am sometimes, but to a much much lesser degree)
yet for all of that, I believed until I turned approx 17 and then I was doubting myself, I became a "Buddhist atheist" at 18, at 19 a skeptic-agnostic and then at 20-22 I began to consider myself an atheist.
I never got comfort from church when I was a child.
I used to live with a friend later in life (late teens), and we went to church Wednesday nights
I went just to humor him, as I was really doubtful of it all by that time.
But no, I can't say I miss it at all. There were attractive people, I guess I miss them? haha
I always felt guilty for questioning if maybe the church had it wrong about homosexuals.
I felt guilty about myself being sometimes attracted to men.
I kept wondering why a god would invent prayer if it knew everything already and was omnipresent and omnipotent
I was often suicidal and depressed (and I still am sometimes, but to a much much lesser degree)
yet for all of that, I believed until I turned approx 17 and then I was doubting myself, I became a "Buddhist atheist" at 18, at 19 a skeptic-agnostic and then at 20-22 I began to consider myself an atheist.
I never got comfort from church when I was a child.
I used to live with a friend later in life (late teens), and we went to church Wednesday nights
I went just to humor him, as I was really doubtful of it all by that time.
But no, I can't say I miss it at all. There were attractive people, I guess I miss them? haha
