RE: Help me I'm watching myself die in time/my life is going by as I blink my eyes.
May 9, 2012 at 3:20 am
(This post was last modified: May 9, 2012 at 3:20 am by Kayenneh.)
1) Can anyone offer any consolation/comfort?
Probably a therapist. If you're feeling that much anxiety, going professional is my advice.
2) Should I just give up to the mystery of life and just accept it for what it is?
Yes. Life is wonderful, but as you say, it goes by fast. You won't know anything after death, so live a s much as you can now, relish that you are alive. Fretting is i my opinion the worst waste of time.
3) What is healthy to question about life, the universe and everything; and what should I just accept?
Ask away and be curious, but do not expect to find many answers soon.
4) I know my mind has dark partitions. How can I live with these and use them to my advantage?
See the first question.
5) How can I live here now?
I have to ignore this question, since it doesn't make any sense to me.
6) How fast has your life gone on a scale of 1 - 10, 1 being slow 10 being fast.
10. Fortunately I'm a sucker for speed
8) What is important to you in your life, and how do your beliefs, views, thoughts or openness determine that?
If I was to write down all that matters to me, it would become tl;dr. The short version is that I love living and I won't leave the stage until I have to. To be able to at least for a moment perceive things around me and be able to think is enough for me.
9) What purpose do you see that you have other than passing on DNA?
Absolutely nothing!
10) Does it make you sad to think that one day you will be mute to this earth and all it's beauty and ugly ness, joys and sorrows, good and bad ect...? Or do you use it to your advantage and how?
When that day comes, I won't know of it, so it doesn't matter to me.
11) What is the past and future? Are they not real? Does the human mind make them up and the only moment that has ever actually existed is the present. Yet we know of people who have lived before us that are no longer perceiving at this moment.
Time is a strange concept, and since I'm not a physicist, I'm not able to comment on the notion of a past and future.
Philosophical Questions: (Really, those before these, weren't philosophical?!)
12) What do you think about the Infinite Monkeys theory?
Not much.
13) We love our friends and families, but in reality are they not just
physical beings too?
Yes.
14) Why was I born as me, here during this moment during the vastness and infinity that is time and space. Why not some other planet at some other time in some other form? Why am I conscious to begin with? Why not another form on this same planet? (I'm assuming that if life happened here it'll happen somewhere else)
Random probability. And the fact that your parents had unprotected sex -> you became a human -> you have the ability to think.
15) *Last out of place concrete question because it fits in with the above one* Why does life form? Why does life grow? I could understand a universe or reality where all matter is inorganic/inanimate but why does matter want to grow and assemble into organic living things? Is it the nature of the Universe/Multiverse. I remember there being an answer to this but I cant find it, maybe I imagined it.
Because of the way the organic molecules behave.
16)Do you think I should over come my fear of death now! and get on with life, or forget it and go about life? I think I'll find more meaning if I ponder this and am able to emotionally and mentally conquer this fear.
Yes, you should get over your fear of death.
17) So do we cease to exist? All our memories, all our experiences wiped out; gone forever. Like we never existed, and we will never know that we never existed. Non existence is perplexing to ponder.
Yup, we sure do. But we leave a legacy in for of our thoughts, interactions with others, and perhaps DNA.
18) Even if we do have other forms and other lives and we pass from one to another learning the same lessons over and over until we reach Nirvana. Am I going to die in this from and be dead to everything I knew from this form? Science tells us that memories are stored in our brains which I went into the I think there for I am above. So the chemical reactions storing my past actions are a physical thing. Even if there is a spirit, soul, something immaterial that moves on when we die will it know of this life? Will it be able to unlock these memories like people say they unlock past lives? Or are we dead in the ground and unknowing to all/in a state of non existence?
There is no soul or eternal being in us, so yes, when our atoms and molecules move onward (you don't have to be dead for this to happen, actually, it happens all the time) and form new life, you won't know of it.
19) I could die in a minute, an hour, a week, a month, during wisdom tooth surgery, a year, a decade, two decades,during a future kidney transplant to my sister who was born with one kidney to save her life, half a century from now; or on my 100th birthday, and it'll all be the same passing where ever I go if I go on. In this aspect are we dead right now? Or is the only moment now and have we always been alive, are eternal? (involves thinking about time, is it real, the acknowledgement of past and future.) We will be old, sick or dying before we know it, and once we're dead to this form we won't know it. It'll be over in the blink of an eye, and again; we won't know it? Like I said yesterday I was a kid, I blinked and now I'm here and almost 20 with a full beard T_T
Death is the only certain factor in everyone's life. Learn to live with it.
20) After thinking about question 19, Why do humans want to live? why do we struggle and cling on put so much effort into life if we are all going to die and be in the same boat?
Because I understand that I got this improbable opportunity to be a sentient being for a while, so I'm gonna enjoy the ride for as long as it lasts and I try to make it as fun and joyful as possible too.
21) Is the human mind not meant to comprehend eternity? Do we not live forever as we would not ever understand it. I mean think of it as a number or as a time period or as an abstract thing. It's so difficult to get your brain around. The concept of a moment or instant or point or now is easier to understand; a period of time or space so short that no time or space passes at all.
It is due to the environment our brain has developed in.
22) Does anyone else feel trapped in time? Trapped in life and this reality? Like you are plopped into a situation where ceasing to exist is the only way out? That we are not here for what we think we are hear for. Maybe we are here only to pass on life and DNA and living is a torture we must endure for a very very short amount of time. So all we can do is make that torture as comfortable as possible?
Nope. Living is not a torture for me at least.
23) No matter how painful death is or if we die in our sleep... we won't know. This is puzzling but is it also a good thing. We probably wont know or remember how we died.
Yes.
24) Does thinking about the fact that you will die one day and could be mute to this form, all of your efforts, actions and memories scare you into the impermanence of your surroundings? I think of this and suddenly it seems like nothing is really here, and that I can't grab onto anything or there is nothing to hold tight to.
Nope.
So I look more for debatable answers than Yes or now answers.
Well, I'm sorry to say, all some of your questions needed were a simple yes or no answer. [/hide]
Probably a therapist. If you're feeling that much anxiety, going professional is my advice.
2) Should I just give up to the mystery of life and just accept it for what it is?
Yes. Life is wonderful, but as you say, it goes by fast. You won't know anything after death, so live a s much as you can now, relish that you are alive. Fretting is i my opinion the worst waste of time.
3) What is healthy to question about life, the universe and everything; and what should I just accept?
Ask away and be curious, but do not expect to find many answers soon.
4) I know my mind has dark partitions. How can I live with these and use them to my advantage?
See the first question.
5) How can I live here now?
I have to ignore this question, since it doesn't make any sense to me.
6) How fast has your life gone on a scale of 1 - 10, 1 being slow 10 being fast.
10. Fortunately I'm a sucker for speed
8) What is important to you in your life, and how do your beliefs, views, thoughts or openness determine that?
If I was to write down all that matters to me, it would become tl;dr. The short version is that I love living and I won't leave the stage until I have to. To be able to at least for a moment perceive things around me and be able to think is enough for me.
9) What purpose do you see that you have other than passing on DNA?
Absolutely nothing!
10) Does it make you sad to think that one day you will be mute to this earth and all it's beauty and ugly ness, joys and sorrows, good and bad ect...? Or do you use it to your advantage and how?
When that day comes, I won't know of it, so it doesn't matter to me.
11) What is the past and future? Are they not real? Does the human mind make them up and the only moment that has ever actually existed is the present. Yet we know of people who have lived before us that are no longer perceiving at this moment.
Time is a strange concept, and since I'm not a physicist, I'm not able to comment on the notion of a past and future.
Philosophical Questions: (Really, those before these, weren't philosophical?!)
12) What do you think about the Infinite Monkeys theory?
Not much.
13) We love our friends and families, but in reality are they not just
physical beings too?
Yes.
14) Why was I born as me, here during this moment during the vastness and infinity that is time and space. Why not some other planet at some other time in some other form? Why am I conscious to begin with? Why not another form on this same planet? (I'm assuming that if life happened here it'll happen somewhere else)
Random probability. And the fact that your parents had unprotected sex -> you became a human -> you have the ability to think.
15) *Last out of place concrete question because it fits in with the above one* Why does life form? Why does life grow? I could understand a universe or reality where all matter is inorganic/inanimate but why does matter want to grow and assemble into organic living things? Is it the nature of the Universe/Multiverse. I remember there being an answer to this but I cant find it, maybe I imagined it.
Because of the way the organic molecules behave.
16)Do you think I should over come my fear of death now! and get on with life, or forget it and go about life? I think I'll find more meaning if I ponder this and am able to emotionally and mentally conquer this fear.
Yes, you should get over your fear of death.
17) So do we cease to exist? All our memories, all our experiences wiped out; gone forever. Like we never existed, and we will never know that we never existed. Non existence is perplexing to ponder.
Yup, we sure do. But we leave a legacy in for of our thoughts, interactions with others, and perhaps DNA.
18) Even if we do have other forms and other lives and we pass from one to another learning the same lessons over and over until we reach Nirvana. Am I going to die in this from and be dead to everything I knew from this form? Science tells us that memories are stored in our brains which I went into the I think there for I am above. So the chemical reactions storing my past actions are a physical thing. Even if there is a spirit, soul, something immaterial that moves on when we die will it know of this life? Will it be able to unlock these memories like people say they unlock past lives? Or are we dead in the ground and unknowing to all/in a state of non existence?
There is no soul or eternal being in us, so yes, when our atoms and molecules move onward (you don't have to be dead for this to happen, actually, it happens all the time) and form new life, you won't know of it.
19) I could die in a minute, an hour, a week, a month, during wisdom tooth surgery, a year, a decade, two decades,during a future kidney transplant to my sister who was born with one kidney to save her life, half a century from now; or on my 100th birthday, and it'll all be the same passing where ever I go if I go on. In this aspect are we dead right now? Or is the only moment now and have we always been alive, are eternal? (involves thinking about time, is it real, the acknowledgement of past and future.) We will be old, sick or dying before we know it, and once we're dead to this form we won't know it. It'll be over in the blink of an eye, and again; we won't know it? Like I said yesterday I was a kid, I blinked and now I'm here and almost 20 with a full beard T_T
Death is the only certain factor in everyone's life. Learn to live with it.
20) After thinking about question 19, Why do humans want to live? why do we struggle and cling on put so much effort into life if we are all going to die and be in the same boat?
Because I understand that I got this improbable opportunity to be a sentient being for a while, so I'm gonna enjoy the ride for as long as it lasts and I try to make it as fun and joyful as possible too.
21) Is the human mind not meant to comprehend eternity? Do we not live forever as we would not ever understand it. I mean think of it as a number or as a time period or as an abstract thing. It's so difficult to get your brain around. The concept of a moment or instant or point or now is easier to understand; a period of time or space so short that no time or space passes at all.
It is due to the environment our brain has developed in.
22) Does anyone else feel trapped in time? Trapped in life and this reality? Like you are plopped into a situation where ceasing to exist is the only way out? That we are not here for what we think we are hear for. Maybe we are here only to pass on life and DNA and living is a torture we must endure for a very very short amount of time. So all we can do is make that torture as comfortable as possible?
Nope. Living is not a torture for me at least.
23) No matter how painful death is or if we die in our sleep... we won't know. This is puzzling but is it also a good thing. We probably wont know or remember how we died.
Yes.
24) Does thinking about the fact that you will die one day and could be mute to this form, all of your efforts, actions and memories scare you into the impermanence of your surroundings? I think of this and suddenly it seems like nothing is really here, and that I can't grab onto anything or there is nothing to hold tight to.
Nope.
So I look more for debatable answers than Yes or now answers.
Well, I'm sorry to say, all some of your questions needed were a simple yes or no answer. [/hide]
When I was young, there was a god with infinite power protecting me. Is there anyone else who felt that way? And was sure about it? but the first time I fell in love, I was thrown down - or maybe I broke free - and I bade farewell to God and became human. Now I don't have God's protection, and I walk on the ground without wings, but I don't regret this hardship. I want to live as a person. -Arina Tanemura
