RE: Help me I'm watching myself die in time/my life is going by as I blink my eyes.
May 9, 2012 at 9:03 am
Thank you for taking the time to reply to me, and for doing so as quickly as you did.
I feel a lot more appreciative of life this morning than I was yesterday.
I just still feel hopeless to the fact that one day absolutely everything I've ever known, loved, put time and effort into, created, changed, improved, benefited, thought, saw, expirenced or impacted in anyway at all will be like it never existed at all. Everything will be just as it never existed.
Im more comforted about my fear of death. No matter how it happens or how painful in the end I wont ever know I lived and died.
But when I think of being dead; a state of no perception, it boggles my mind. To think all of this will be here and I wont exist. Yet all of this was here for 14 billion years while I was not, and it didn't trouble me at all.
Is death really the ultimate end? Once I die will I never be conscious ever again?
I feel a lot more appreciative of life this morning than I was yesterday.
I just still feel hopeless to the fact that one day absolutely everything I've ever known, loved, put time and effort into, created, changed, improved, benefited, thought, saw, expirenced or impacted in anyway at all will be like it never existed at all. Everything will be just as it never existed.
Im more comforted about my fear of death. No matter how it happens or how painful in the end I wont ever know I lived and died.
But when I think of being dead; a state of no perception, it boggles my mind. To think all of this will be here and I wont exist. Yet all of this was here for 14 billion years while I was not, and it didn't trouble me at all.
Is death really the ultimate end? Once I die will I never be conscious ever again?
