I created a light form of MPD in myself on accident. It seemed like a good way to handle multiple task would be to segment my brain into "Me" and colored regions that could handle different tasks, so I started talking to the segments calling them "blue" "green" and "orange". I quickly realized that these parts were doing things I didn't like and I was creating like a reverb effect when adressing them and I wasn't gaining any kind of efficiency or meaning from it so I resorbed them. Trouble is, I don't like the color orange so that entity took a while to silence. Weird, I know!
Another experiment, that resulted in a few hebephrenic episodes, was the time I decided that language was a hinderance to thought speed, because it is; I still think that. So, to speed up my mental processing I tried to arrest my thoughts at their inception by occupying the speech centers of my brain through guteral uterances of total nonsense. It worked! The problem was that the resulting thought streams were so hard to convey to other people because they were divorced from rational expression. It is kind of like what happens when you have a beautiful experience on LSD or mushrooms and then try to convey it to other people... um, pretty lights dancing in majestic forms of paisley doileys? nope, um, sentient, fluid, thought forms caught in glycerin and refracted joy? The worst part was that when people asked me things I would sometimes start making weird noises while thinking which really freaks people out! I've stopped it for the most part but sometimes when I am having rushes of thoughts I still fall into *guteral uterances*.
Creed of Heresy,
I certainly don't have any magic bullets for you but I can tell you one thing that helped me unspin my mind after a trip to the psych ward. I started juggling devil sticks. I found that while juggling, my mind was occupied and I was engaging the play circuits of my brain. The coolest thing about juggling is that no matter when you start you can stop and be right at the same spot as when you started. There is a timelessness about juggling that might help your avolition. I still struggle a little bit with that. Also, while juggling all sorts of thoughts would come to the forefront of my brain and if there was someone there to hear me I could rattle off long stories while juggling. Most people liked to listen to these stories while extremely high.
I have even been told that people feel high while listening to me.
Another experiment, that resulted in a few hebephrenic episodes, was the time I decided that language was a hinderance to thought speed, because it is; I still think that. So, to speed up my mental processing I tried to arrest my thoughts at their inception by occupying the speech centers of my brain through guteral uterances of total nonsense. It worked! The problem was that the resulting thought streams were so hard to convey to other people because they were divorced from rational expression. It is kind of like what happens when you have a beautiful experience on LSD or mushrooms and then try to convey it to other people... um, pretty lights dancing in majestic forms of paisley doileys? nope, um, sentient, fluid, thought forms caught in glycerin and refracted joy? The worst part was that when people asked me things I would sometimes start making weird noises while thinking which really freaks people out! I've stopped it for the most part but sometimes when I am having rushes of thoughts I still fall into *guteral uterances*.
Creed of Heresy,
I certainly don't have any magic bullets for you but I can tell you one thing that helped me unspin my mind after a trip to the psych ward. I started juggling devil sticks. I found that while juggling, my mind was occupied and I was engaging the play circuits of my brain. The coolest thing about juggling is that no matter when you start you can stop and be right at the same spot as when you started. There is a timelessness about juggling that might help your avolition. I still struggle a little bit with that. Also, while juggling all sorts of thoughts would come to the forefront of my brain and if there was someone there to hear me I could rattle off long stories while juggling. Most people liked to listen to these stories while extremely high.
I have even been told that people feel high while listening to me.
