Anxiety/Depression/Mental Illness Support

[Annik]

I was feeling terrible earlier. Having been unable to sleep, resulting in my not getting together with my worker, and not finishing my book, and thus not getting together with my group to discuss it. And realizing that my new psychiatrist's worrying about my "sleep hygiene" being responsible for not being able to sleep after 4 hours or more is stupid and that in addition to being an underpaid incompetent, she may be a part of the plot to kill me and do me harm.


And I was going to say that my mood has moved past the anger and frustration and sadness, but just thinking about it is making it return. I need to drag something sharp along my arm. So why am I hesitant?

Oh well. Bought a new kind of tequila tonight. And though given my finances, I shouldn't have spent the money, I'm very happy with my purchase (Antiguo reposado). And after 6-7 shots of various tequilas, am feeling more accepting. Tomorrow I will handle the pain. Tonight I will be drunk. (And hopefully not make another clumsy pass at a moderator.)

Remember that spilling blood might make you feel better for a moment, but it will not make you more liked and it will not lessen any pain. Boozing up is not the way to go, either. You'll toast your liver and brain while simultaneously depressing your system further. If you really need something, please choose weed. It will help you sleep and you'll feel a lot better about it in the morning.