Anxiety/Depression/Mental Illness Support

[LiberalHearted]

I call em cuz thats what everyone says to do and when I'm desperate I need someone totell i wanna die

Keep calling and find other numbers. Call 911 and spend some time in a facility. Don't give up, someone inside of you is worth the living.

I'm sick as shit, have dreams that I want to die.

Thing is there's no cure for mental disease but treatment, thing is for dizzy shaky numb hands and feet, with migraines and pain throughout my body and uncontrollable muscles spasms and old; life is worth living.

Give the medical community something to do, they need to work harder.

You wouldn't believe it but you'd be missed.

But I finally realize there's no cure for mental illness
People don't get better really, I was in hospital for most of 2011 And I saw people in 40s that kept ending there too

And we all keep plugging. We keep going on. Somehow out of my crew we know what you are feeling. of course I couldn't give names or such, but my greatest friends (mostly atheists) are all in the same boat as you.
We go to the same 'consultation center' take our meds and talk to each other see each other and even make each other laugh.

When I was in college I thought I'd finish my psychology degree and help people with what I experienced

Unless again gaining a support group of friends, which the help comes from all. Psychology was my major too.

But there really is no help. I been through sooooo many cbt and dbt classes
Sooooo many coping skills
But when the reality hits, that life is bs, none of that really helps
You guys seen southpark? Maybe those of us with depression are the ones who see the world for what it is, shit

Sometimes ya gotta go through a fucking (seemingly) lifetime of shit. To get to the a ha moment of what the fuck that was about.
Sometimes you have to spend endless fucking hours in therapy, groups and sessions to see that there is someone else worse than you, and wow that light goes on, maybe this person I can help and then my life is worth it.

Sometimes meeting people that are your mirror, ya take the chance to go full monty and let it all out of your system and sometimes you find the medication that just makes you sleepy but puts a few things in perspective.

Sometimes you have to push the throttle, for the thrill of the speed, to know hey I really want to be around a little longer.

As long a there is sometimes, there is a figment of hope.

I'll PM you some things just too private for a full forum.
Mostly hang in there.