Zentor, I was in treatment at the age of sixteen aslo, but I didn't get my illness under control until I was thirty. Looking back, the struggles were worth enduring to get where I am today. I know the process can be overwheliming and the length it takes unbearable, but there is a good life out there waiting for you. You just have cling to hope and persevere. Easier said than done, I know.
A friend of mine killed himself when he was your age, and it was devastating to his friends and family. I do believe that if he had the opportunity to see the pain he caused by committing suicde, he would never have gone through with it. Suicide doesn't erase the pain you have, it just spreads it around to the people who care about you.
While you're in the throws of a really bad episode, try to do whatever you can to occupy your mind. Whatch a movie, go for a walk while listening to music, or do anything that stops your brain from obsessing over its sadness. The real key, however, is to recognize when a depressive episode is coming and do what you can to stop it. Again, taking walks was great for me, and exercise is good no matter what, so if you feel as if you're starting to get down, take a nice walk. If you walk regularly, that can be a big help too.
A friend of mine killed himself when he was your age, and it was devastating to his friends and family. I do believe that if he had the opportunity to see the pain he caused by committing suicde, he would never have gone through with it. Suicide doesn't erase the pain you have, it just spreads it around to the people who care about you.
Creed of Heresy Wrote:Now to flip my message upside down; I'm suffering a particularly bad bout of depression at the moment. Not the normal kind where "things I used to enjoy aren't fun" like I usually seem to frequently have but a really shitty one where I cannot resolve to do a single thing. I can't even play a video game, or write, or, fuck, I can't even cook. And when I can't get the motivation to cook, well, trust me, that's the biggest indicator of a problem with me you can ever get.
Anybody have any ideas how to break this? Or at least give myself some breathing space of some kind? Also, this seems to happen once every two weeks, not reliably, but on average, so any ideas on breaking this that really work would be a hell of a great thing to have.
While you're in the throws of a really bad episode, try to do whatever you can to occupy your mind. Whatch a movie, go for a walk while listening to music, or do anything that stops your brain from obsessing over its sadness. The real key, however, is to recognize when a depressive episode is coming and do what you can to stop it. Again, taking walks was great for me, and exercise is good no matter what, so if you feel as if you're starting to get down, take a nice walk. If you walk regularly, that can be a big help too.
Even if the open windows of science at first make us shiver after the cozy indoor warmth of traditional humanizing myths, in the end the fresh air brings vigor, and the great spaces have a splendor of their own - Bertrand Russell
