RE: Anxiety/Depression/Mental Illness Support
July 2, 2012 at 7:39 pm
(This post was last modified: July 2, 2012 at 8:25 pm by zentor.)
Today has been a living hell
Today was worse than any day I've had in a while.
I know now there's no hope for me, ill never be happy and ill never reach any of my goal.
Don't patronize me, I have had years of treatment and have been very proactive in my mental health, I did everything I could for the last 7 years.
I'm going to die soon, just wanted to say that god, you can take away everything in lifee that gives me joy, and you can make me cry everyday. But in the end ur just the jerk who picks on weaker beings.
But in this sense I am stronger, ill die like all men, but a heart of gold lives forever. Wheather in another realm, or your nightmares for when regret hits you for what you've done.
You will pay one day. But I don't want you to suffer. Because unlike you I believe everyone should be given more chances to be better.
You are my greatest enemy, you created me just so you could have pleasure watching me suffer, but I still don't want you to suffer.
Goodbye
Just seems like every little thing I do in life is full of adversity, eeverythings stacked against me
Today was gona play tor, internet died
Net came back, gpu died
Got on fone hoping to go to my depression chatroom, they closed down
Stuff like this, usually worse like when I was jailed and times ewhn I'm hospitalized always happen I can accompliish anything
So how can I beelieve gods not torturing me??
Today was worse than any day I've had in a while.
I know now there's no hope for me, ill never be happy and ill never reach any of my goal.
Don't patronize me, I have had years of treatment and have been very proactive in my mental health, I did everything I could for the last 7 years.
I'm going to die soon, just wanted to say that god, you can take away everything in lifee that gives me joy, and you can make me cry everyday. But in the end ur just the jerk who picks on weaker beings.
But in this sense I am stronger, ill die like all men, but a heart of gold lives forever. Wheather in another realm, or your nightmares for when regret hits you for what you've done.
You will pay one day. But I don't want you to suffer. Because unlike you I believe everyone should be given more chances to be better.
You are my greatest enemy, you created me just so you could have pleasure watching me suffer, but I still don't want you to suffer.
Goodbye
Just seems like every little thing I do in life is full of adversity, eeverythings stacked against me
Today was gona play tor, internet died
Net came back, gpu died
Got on fone hoping to go to my depression chatroom, they closed down
Stuff like this, usually worse like when I was jailed and times ewhn I'm hospitalized always happen I can accompliish anything
So how can I beelieve gods not torturing me??
