Fear of dying because of my views

[Angrboda]

It's okay to think about your death and be afraid. Brains are pretty smart things. Given good food, water, and good ideas, they usually take us where we need to go. If there were something unreasonable about your feelings, that they were a symptom of your brain misbehaving, that would be one thing. But I suspect your brain is just flagging something it feels important to work through. A sort of, "Hey, let's think about this over here a while." It's natural. Just don't let it become so obsessive that it gets in the way of other living.

I can't offer much from personal experience. As a Taoist, part of my worldview is looking upon life and the natural world as things that just are, and that just are in a certain way, and that way is good. I'm also mentally ill, so my entire life, post-Christianity, has been a mix of believing I will never die, yet also being strongly materialist in believing there is nothing beyond the material world. I'm rather complicated. I'm just trying to say that, while I empathize, I can't honestly say I've ever faced the same issues.