Gender Identity Disorder? I don't think so! :D

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I really enjoy webcam modeling, but I don't make as much money as I'd like. Part of it is that I'm not as good at advertising, part of it is that I'm a little older/heavier than some of the girls out there and some of it is that it's tough for me to keep a regular schedule. It's given me a little income while I'm in school, though, and it's helped me get more comfortable with my body and my sexuality.

I see... and I'm probably too exotic to bring to the masses anyhow.

In March 2011, I was having to fight the urge to just chop it off with a butcher knife. Now? Now I like my penis. I just wish I had more control over it.

Nice! It's different for everyone... have you suffered from the 'how trans is trans enough' bullshit some of the community touts because you don't mind/like it?

I've fought the 'urge' to cut it off for some six years now... I'd say I have a lot of restraint, but I know it's just because I'm looking forward to post-op orgasm *so much*

I'm considering going on and trying to do more. I know of a photographer in Austin who does photography for a major ts porn site and I'm working on trying to set up a photo shoot with them. I also kind know of a girl up in Arlington who has made a big name for herself in the ts porn scene over the past year or so and I've been thinking of trying to get help from her to set something up. I don't know if I would want to go out and actually do porn, mostly because I know my bf wouldn't be ok with it, but doing one or two big name photo shoots and maybe a solo vid would probably help my popularity.

It sounds like a great idea to me... but then I shouldn't be one to give advice, since I think sex work is all I amount to outside of seasonal fishing. Rather pessimistic of me... but hey: if you think you've got a chance at some more money: why the hell not?

Quite lucky. I started when I was 29. My teen years were spent with my dad forcing me into boy sports. Ugh. Can you imagine how fun that was when most of the insults thrown at me involved the phrase "like a girl?"

I tried dating guys, never felt right then. If I date guys now, it feels right. I can date girls, too; heck, started dating Lee before either of us really realized he's trans, so I kinda have to be bi.

My earlier teen years were spent being fucked both utterly willingly and also not. I can imagine how "fun" it is to be bullied through school, or I can just remember it. I'd smile at "you look like a girl.", but then frown since it was often meant with a mean heart...

I rather enjoyed playing sports with guys, after a certain point in elementary school: girls just stopped playing as competitively. They became less of a challenge because they didn't try. I stopped playing sports mostly because I was tired of being tormented, but I also was really starting to hate how hairy and unfeminine my body was.

... I never had a problem banging guys, on the contrary: I loved being treated as a woman, and sex was the only place I could have that. Even if it was horrible, even if it hurt... it cheered me psychologically.

Remember the other thread where I'm talking about the feminist extremist? That's them. They home in on 'male privilege' and don't let up with the term. The irony is, having been raised as a girl in a religious fundamentalist household, he's probably had a lot less male privilege over the years than they have, especially since he's pre-transition.

Poor Lee

And pregnant woman privilege is overpowered.

I'm about at that point, too; I've gotten all the support I really need from the trans community and as of now, so much of the anger and bitterness coming from people who are just starting out or who simply can't move on is bringing me down. I'm ready to move on to greener pastures. The only problem is that I've centered so much of my social life around people like that I'm not really sure where to move on to.

That sucks I wasn't sure what to do when I moved to Texas with only two friends left in Alaska... so I went out almost every night to various GLBT meetings in hopes of making new friends. Most of the people I met I don't talk to or care about, but I've met a good number who meet the mark ^_^

Granted... it's probably harder to change your social circles when you're in your thirties than your late teens...

He'd totally take that trade, although he'd much rather get rid of 'the tumors' than fix his genitals. Poor thing has to either deal with letting them bounce around, which is EXTREMELY uncomfortable to him or he has to wear a thick, hot, heavy binder under his clothes in Houston heat and humidity. I never met breasts I hated until he came around.

Transmen have it hard His nickname for them reminds me of my 'cancerous growth'

Damn, I like your attitude. I'm about the same way. My goal in life is just to be happy and worrying about trivial shit like that just gets in the way of my goal.

My attitude, purple hair, and girlfriend are all I've got going for me, so I'd best hope they're likable